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Taurus; stubborn; is shy but passionate once you know me. 要让我爱上一样东西/一个人是件非常难的一件事，但当我一爱上就没回头路了。I love chocolates, but not vanilla or strawberry or white chocolates. 我什么都可以不吃，可是一定不能不吃巧克力。I like watching dramas, blogging, getting hooked on the internet, sleeping (like a pig and owl), etc. I dislike strawberries. I hate strawberries. I really don't like strawberries. Or any food that is pink in colour. They just disgust me. I listen to English Pop, Cpop, Kpop. I love Aaron 炎亚纶 and I respect Lady Gaga.
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Narration
HELLO! OMG I'm finally back here typing and uploading pictures....The last time i blogged was on 10 May..that's like three weeks ago! So busy cos there were tests almost every week and with PW kicking in, workload is getting kindda crazy...But I'm still staying sane of course (: Okay I shall try to recall whatever that has happened for the past three weeks and summarise them!
TMC went down to MI to support MSB for their match against AC but apparently it rained so....(For more pictures please check out my instagram!) I think this was on 9 May when we had Leaders Appreciation!
MI has GNC so we all bought cookies, drinks, etc there and ate...If only MJ has some cafes too..hmm
Thank goodness leaders appreciation was successful. It was the first time I was helping out with the technical stuff for an event and looking at the event run through, planning and carrying out an event is really difficult...
Week9 was the craziest week I remember cos I had Chem test, and History test (Also known as Closed Book Timed Assignment) Still stuck at S grade for chem zz Needs to study harder hais. It was my first time writing a history essay after like 6 months...And the difficulty increased...You'll never understand how crazy it is to write a history essay in 45mins. MidYears is like 4essays in 3hours. This requires more stamina than running 2.4, seriously. Sigh. Damn stressed. It's like you know you dont have enough time, you have to complete it, but then you really feel like giving up cos it absorbs so much of your energy. It's not about writing, you have to write and think...So torturous.
But anyway week9 was the first week i ever reached home at 4pm on Monday. And I had a proper lunch after school.
And then I ended week9 with PW meeting (for GPP) and studying more history.
Week 10 was a short week; smart school swaped Wednesday and Thursday's timetables around, so Wednesday felt like a Thursday while Thursday felt like a Friday.
MSB Finals. (Wednesday) It was the night when we all became fans of of the soccer team! They're amazing, I swear.
We had an icecream parade on Thursday and official declare of full day off on Friday by Ms Lai! :DD
Colosseum after Thursday. Another successful event!!
Had laksa+niangdoufu for lunch. Spice. My lips was swollen after eating it x.x But it was nice!!
Then we all bought candy floss which came down to our school during Colosseum!! SO BIG AND FLUFFY.
Ended week10 going out and having dinner with the rest of XXX
Missing in photo: Charis and Weiling.
Went to get a new phone cover and bought some stuff before meeting the rest while they went to karoke. Geez, I miss Karaoke sessions with them! Heard interesting stories from them (as usual); Having weird feelings towards certain topics; but i guess what we can do as friends is just to support.
My fringe is damn freaking long and my hair is damn freaking thick i need a haircut. Ugh.
Spent the rest of my weekend trying to study GP...And organising my worksheets, phone apps, desktop documents..GP exam was....uhhh okay...Nothing much to comment on cos well i guess my English sucks..Shall just try my best to bulk up (I dont know how, when History readings and my other subjects are already so demanding sigh)
After GP: JUBILA10N!! MOST AWESOME SHIT EVER.
Yummy food (pizzzzzzzza, 老伴, sogurt, satay) + awesome performances esp by MJ DANCE and Mr Lau and Mr Wong ((((:
Today. Lecture starts. Finally had time to spend with my classmates. The only times i'll be able to bond with my class is only when i step down from everything im involved in (as always)..I'm so sorry i feel so guilty for spending so little time with my classmates cos i'm always somewhere else during events helping out, doing this, doing that, even if i've got no duties assigned!
Had lunch at Manhattan. Sorry no picture on main dish cos my photo damn fail -_-" thanks to the lighting ugh.
Feeling hungry now shall go eat dinnnnnerrrr! Wow, what a long post. Think the next time i'll blog should be after Midyears. :/ Busy month ahead urgh. Labels: life
17 years on Earth and going
Every year on 10 May people would wish that I grow fatter
Every year on 10 May I would most probably be studying hard for exams (but i still never do well for them)
Every year on 10 May it would just be a very normal day, just like every other day, except that people would wish me 'happy birthday'
Of course I don't belong to the upper class of this society so my birthdays aint celebrated with lots of joy.
This year, I just feel like crying, cos i just couldnt take things anymore. I just feel really tired and sick of everything.
Nevertheless, I am very grateful all those who still remembers my birthday and bothered about me (even though I'm almost like an insignificant speck of dust)
Life goes on. Back to Gorbachev and tomorrow mcDeltaT. I miss you, you, you, and you, and a lot of you. Labels: life
may day
I never intend to write this. Because nothing much has happened for the past one week. Yet too many things have happened. This will be a random post with random thoughts and random crap cos I have too many things to say; but i dont know where to start and how to end.
Ms Lai said 'If something is not your priority, you will never make it.' I feel like I've made so many freaking mistakes. I know people are judging me; I know they will think I'm a hypocrite (or maybe thats what i think of myself) ; there's only one thing i can say: I'm sorry. So many commitments; how to handle everything?
I was never as strong as what I think people think I am. Just because I never give that flustered face doesn't mean that I'm not feeling flustered. It's exactly because I'm flustered thats why I pull a straight face to make sure everything is right. But I guess even if one day i break down this outer shell nobody would give a damn about me anyway #foeveralone
Emotional struggle everyday.
Since you never knew what you wanted to do and where you wanted to go, you jolly well study hard in MJ and make sure you produce results. And the only way to produce results is to constantly tell yourself that you're not good enough. Nothing must ever make me love anything in this place. Because it's not good enough. The moment you accept the way things are happening, you will be complacent. So you can't//
It's an emotional struggle deciding what to do and thinking whether what you're doing is right.
It's an emotional struggle thinking what others are thinking.
It's an emotional struggle for me everyday.
On the verge of breaking down every single day. And then remembering that there's no one who is going to support you even if you fall; so the only thing you can do is to try your very best to maintain your balance and walk across this tightrope successfully one step at a time.
Yes. I'm pulling a straight face everyday. But do you ever know what I'm thinking?
And yesterday I realised the same sentence said by two different people can bring different tones. I forgot that. And therefore, they are two different people afterall.
It's Labour Day.
Screw this freaking hot weather; I'm sweating like mad as I type this; I shall go to my bedroom and sleep. And study hard. Very hard. Labels: life
Mid Term
Reached home at about 8 almost everyday for the whole of this week except for Friday. Superbly drained and spent my whole day sleeping (15hours of sleep) I haven't done a single piece of work so I'm going to start soon after this post. :/
Monday, 16/4: Sports updates by TMC - Hi I'm Jonathan, and I'm Jonathan. Seriously epic. Too many Jonathans in TMC! Stayed back after school for cheer training; and cheers it's the first time i blew up a balloon (kay i really suck at blowing balloons ;_;) and we cheered while running around the school track.
Tuesday, 17/4: Had Bio Practical and it was damn fun making yeast balls and some weird stuff. Will post a picture here once I get the photos from Trena. And we decided to change the class whatsapp icon before Kit changes it :P Nerdy class changing our class whatsapp group icon to a picture taken every week at some science practical every week. HAHA.
Eating everyone's favourite (yet fattening) Mango Cheese Tart
Had Investiture Rehearsal; went home and slept. Sigh basically i didnt do much work this week lols.
Wednesday, 18/4: Went down to IJC after school to cheer for Meridian Soccer Girls (against MI) Tough match, strong opponents; but we never stopped cheering for them. IJC's school compound is damn freaking cool; their canteen doesnt even look like a school canteen, it looks like a hawker centre or something and their school compound looks like a shopping mall LOL.
Match ended earlier than I expected so I went down to Orchard to watch MJ CO and Guitar Ensem perform + helped the two videographers who were on their own doing video duty for the first time...But I didn't do much actually cos I can't even remember the last time i did video duty/touched a tape video camera. Pathetic shit. We don't even have spare battery for the video camera. I thought AHS was the worst. Until I came here.
Felt like a failure cos I couldn't see Kit even after starring at the crowd for damn long; and I only saw him when he stood up at the end ;_; And the only thing this kid did was to ask me to send an sms to the class for him THANKS MAN THANKS
Thursday, 19/4: Long day, MAM Last Common Lunch Contest, at least we weren't last; seeing people spam the MJC Ignite wall with dumb comments on why they love Math. Ms Fauzana gave us KitKats after GP. She's so nice!
Attempted to change the class whatsapp group icon to this picture cos the photos are really getting too nerdy HAHA (we've had pictures of cells taken through the lens of microscope, the yeast balls, conical flask with some solution) but Kit claims that his dad will sue me for using his brand without permission (lame kid -_-) HAHAHAHA CANT STAND HIS LAMENESS SERIOUSLY
Had PE; legs and arms and stomach hurt like mad; then chiongged for Investiture Full Dress Rehearsal. Siao; stand with Court shoes...My legs hurt more after that T_T So tired and slept without doing any work again.
Friday, 20/4: First period: History. Haha really love my two history teachers; can't decide who is better...They're equally epic. Ms Lee explained to us the breakdown of USA-USSR relationship in terms of a boy-girl relationship. So funny! :P
Received PW Draft2 back and happy that it was kindda accepted so yeah! Left with the Showcase Plan to be edited (: Had Chem Prac after that and Mr Chan is epic as usual ROFL. Had Chinese Elective after school, and it was quite interesting+fun!!
They invited people down to perform to us, with songs like 那些年，隐形的翅膀 and a lot of others haha.
First time doing video duty after sooooo long and was pleased with my performance even though i jerked a lot and there are a lot of awkward movements that I made (eg zooming too fast, etc)
Can't stand how MJ splits video and photog and infocomm into three different CCAs with some Photog people on duty keep walking #likeaboss covering the video cam -_- And students who have no sense of awareness at all also. WTS?! When I was doing duty at Orchard for CO and Guitar performance, MJ people just walk right into the video camera whereas the people who really saw the existence of the camera was this American couple. Superbly disappointed that people don't see photog and video as equal.
Went home and watched 星空 instead of studying :/
Can I be weak for once and say I really miss the people who would make me laugh all day :( I don't want to be strong anymore. Ah oh wells i should start on my homework now. Labels: life
TJ Mardi Gras 2012
Was at TJ attending their Mardi Gras yesterday; wasted $$$ but i guess it's okay. Cos it was freaking awesome!!! And I finally understood where I went wrong. Because I forgot my goal. I was venturing around TJ and I remembered how much I loved the place; cos i always had this impression even when I was in p5. Feeling sad; but life goes on. Like what Kelly said, it doesn't matter where I am now (since I can't change anything duh) ; i just have to study hard and do well.
The first person I saw was obviously Yuanteng since I had to get the tickets from her..(Oh i just realised I didnt see Jane yesterday.) Then I saw Janice, Alicia and Leeqing. Kelly called to ask where I was while I saw Lindy the mad woman who was waving frantically at me ROFLMAO ITS DAMN FUNNY and she kept asking me to buy food from her booth. HRMPH
Chloe with her classmates and saying the f word once in every second; nothing changes.
And after that Gemaine who was mending the Haunted House, which was scarier at the start since the people had more energy but towards the end wasn't fun anymore (according to Chloe and the rest who went in later) Feeling kindda dumb cos I got scared out of nothing :( I realised how much of a scaredy cat i am. T_T
As usual, Kelly welcomed me with a poke -_-" Things never change. Sigh. And another poke when we were taking a photo ;_; Unexpected moments. Thanks man thanks.
And of course Alicia and Rachael at the anti-smoking booth; and the guitar peeps aka Xinyu and Jiawen...Missed their performance cos it was swapped with some other performance and we didnt know. Sigh dont know when i'll get to see my friends perform again.
Seeing three people sitting down preparing to camwhore at the side and immediately concluded that it must Joey and the rest. (aka Daine and Wenxuan!) HEH.
Me and Wenxuan's rabbit ears HAHAHA. Looking cui cos I slept for 6 hours for the whole week :( Thanks to the damn math tutorial which I thought we were supposed to do but actually the lecture hasn't covered enough content for us to do yet...Okay Lin Qing slept for 3 hours just to do math tutorial so I wasn't the worst HAHAHA. And also thanks to math tutorial, i did a shit piece of work for History tutorial...Feeling extremely guilty :( Receiving back my first piece of history essay next week....hoping it isn't THAT badly done hopefully...And yes I'm studying chemistry cos there's a lecture test next week. Bleargh and there's council every single day next week so yes I'll be even more cui next week....And after investiture I have to start on my next event which is Leaders Investiture. #lesigh when the no. of hours you spent in school > no. of hours you spent sleeping. Pathetic life.
SDMA is out; yeah but going for council next week = can't go for CCA. I wish I had more time to study history and to go for CCA.
I guess next week's post will be more on Council? First council meeting with Atlas people only next week! Labels: life
good friday week
Long weekend just ended, hectic weeks ahead. But hang in there 6 more weeks and the holidays would be here! Sigh I just gave up cheerleading cos I seriously think I cannot cope. Aiya I made this decision while I was studying history, so what more can you expect from me? Whenever I study history i just feel depressed, and even more depressed today cos I couldn't understand a shit because I dont understand all the political terms, and they really don't make sense to me hais :(( Kindda wasted my weekend cos I spent Friday outside, Saturday sleeping cos I was sick and Sunday starring at my History notes which made no sense to me at all boohoohoo
Okay i will mug from tomorrow onwards! Yes, 3 periods of break for chionging homework tomorrow. #icandoit
Friday was out with some bunch of epic people. (: Time you enjoy wasting is not time wasted.
CCA Camp, I tried bonding with people, but i guess I need more time. JC makes me feeling like im doing everything halfheartedly. I meet so many new people, but I dont have enough time to understand these new people properly. And before I could, I have to understand new people. I really miss CCA in Secondary school, it used to be something that everyone looks forward to, like a gateway after a whole week of lessons. And you've got so much time to bond.
Talking about CCA, I went back to AHS to watch the handover ceremony. Do you understand how important CCA is? It's the only group of people you spend 4 years of your life in secondary school with, unlike your class which is changed every year. I rushed back from Council meeting on Friday. Thank god it ended much much earlier than i expected, even though i still missed part of the handover. If I could film my life I would really be seen as going at the speed of light cos I really missed my CCA. Really glad that our batch laid the grounds for the juniors. And watching all the juniors grow. It's really amazing. I realised that people don't really change; their character remains the same, just that their thoughts grow more mature. Probably why the chinese say "江山易改 本性难移"
The rest of the week- me flunking gases test (aish, it was too physics for me, i give up), receiving bio test (quite disappointed with myself cos i know if the same test was given to the whole of 4F im sure everyone would score damn well except for me) How is MJ a mugger school man, all of you are wrong!!! I need to stop being complacent. I need to work damn hard to achieve better results. I dont want to screw a levels like how i screwed o levels. I dont want to go to a place i never wanted to go again. Life is in the control of my hands. I cannot procrastinate. I cannot feel tired. I cannot fall sick. I must be efficient. I must be productive. I need to study hard. I can do this. I must eat more I must sleep earlier I need all the energy I can have.
Nyehh the minnie mouse is quite cute actually heh.
Sometime ago I realised that every single person is different, even though two people you know may have the same trait, they still can't give you the exact same feeling. Just some random thoughts; really left me thinking, am I missing the feeling or am i missing the person/people?
Gambateh! Labels: life
Stress
Pictures are taken from Tumblr! Went to tumblr after I was done with history and i realised that there were a couple of posts on my dashboard that totally describes my feelings now.
Exactly what I am feeling.
I swear I was damn sad when I saw the results. Because i have no idea how the allocations were done. I didn't even have a say. I wanted to cry; I teared; but I forced myself not to cry. I dont know how many decisions that I made were wrong. I dont know why didnt I go to Poly. I dont know what Im doing here. Going to school at 630am; reaching home at 8pm. Studying even more after that. Studying what? Stuff which I probably wouldn't use when I get into the society. I dont even get to do things that I like here. People deprive me of opportunities even though i've been trying very hard to seize these opportunities. Why wasn't I brave enough to go to Poly even though it's harder to get to uni, even though everyone says that JC is better. But so what if its easier to get into uni through JC? You still have to work extremely hard right? Do you think you can get into a university if you don't work hard in JC? Bullshit. There's nothing called easy. Theres only something called working hard.
I'm damn stressed. Every single teacher is chasing me for tutorials, I imagine how they would look at me each time i dont do my tutorial or each time i can't answer their question in class. I can't stand how no matter how low of a profile i keep in class, teachers keep calling my name. I dislike that. I have to watch what I say, watch what i do. I'm damn stressed. I'm damn busy. I haven't had proper meals. I'm losing more weight when I'm supposed to gain weight. My hair loss is getting worse everyday. I need a break. You know the feeling of wanting to get away from everything? I haven't even had a proper break yet.
I am moving so aimlessly. I am damn tired. I want to sleep.
I want to laugh out loud. Why can't I do that anymore :( I hate life. Labels: life
March Holidays?
TGIF.
I can't even produce a post once a week. Every single day is so tiring and I just have to make sure I complete all that I'm supposed to do, get enough rest and sleep so that i still can fight on the next day. Its like a string (which is not flexible at all) is being stretched so much that it feels like it's going to tear and break any time soon. I guess that's how you can describe JC life.
Was March holidays even like a holiday? Holidays should just be renamed to 'Study Break'. Didn't even have enough rest, but here I am, in term2 already. Time seems to be passing faster than ever, it's been about 2 months since I entered JC, and April is coming soon; it's so fast that even though I havent blogged for 2 weeks it still felt as though I just blogged yesterday. So many things happened, so so so many that I really can't remember all of them.
March Holidays was so so so packed that I only managed to meet some of my secondary school friends. Everyone had different schedules, etc. No time to meetup; so we had to resort to apps: LINE. Introduced that to the rest because whatsapp is not free on iPhone. And then they started spamming the conversation with stickers. To an extent that I have to shut the notifications so that i can concentrate on work. I really don't understand why my bunch of friends are so free; they have time to shop, watch dramas, etc everyday. Whereas Im stuck doing my work everyday. Either I have really poor time management skills (i'm trying my best to improve in this area) or they really have no work to be done. Hrmph. Will never introduce that app to people who spams conversation anymore. haha.
They started playing with Simsimi; which one of them decides to call it Simi and another decides to call it simisimi -_- And of course they went to teach Simsimi to respond to our names. Epic.
Also started playing Draw Something; I think the hype is going down...but anyway, all my friends can't stand my horrible ununderstandable drawings. HAHAHA. Oops I'm sorry! x.x
I spent my March Holidays mostly with TMC! Discussing on event (Council Investiture), Bonding, Presidential elections. Were supposed to learn new cheers by the Cheering Comm during Presidential elections, but we ended up listening to songs, singing, watching people dance (Kristle and Sheeqal) instead. haha. Awesome shit. (Post continued on Saturday 24/3 due to the fact that I was too tired to blog after doing some stuff for Investiture planning.) Yesterday was spent with TMC at the Soccer match between TJ and MJ even though it was cancelled due to lightning alert/ wet weather.
Photobombs forever during Council. Credits to Pauline.
I need to bond more with the Council, especially those in Atlas. I dont know all the 4H2 people! Gosh. People are waving to me in school but I don't even know who they are. They know my names, surprisingly. Epic fail me.
The happiest day ever since school started was 17 March when I spammed drama till 4am (Y) Okay that was the only time i watched drama I swear, other than during breaks in school. AHHHH I LOVE SKIPBEAT SO MUCH! It's damn awesome; the Japanese are really damn good at stories; whereas Ivy Chen's acting is superb!
Week1 of school was freaking tiring; PW has kicked in...In order to fully contribute to Council and CCA, I have dropped my REACH programme. But oh wells, the adhoc ones seem fun too! Crazy amount of work but life goes on! Okay back to Bio. I guess the next time i'll blog would be 2 weeks later? Ohgosh; I hope I won't reach to a state where I only blog once per month seriously. Labels: life
the end is the beginning
OKAY HI. I finally have the time to blog cos Council Campaigning is finally over and today is the last day of school (Y) Okay I have a lot of things to talk about so i think this post will be damn long (but i have to try to keep it short cos im like damn sleepy now and i still have to crawl out of bed tomorrow to go to school!) But i have so many things to say and i dont know where to start from... T_T
Okay I shall just random and sorry if my post makes no sense LOL
Okay so we had bio lab on food tests...and i dropped the test tube. -_- but heng the test tube didn't break! :P
I had PE on someday and then i met this person and she was like "You look familiar...Did you go for RED Camp?" HAHA. She's in the same class as me for PE. Like super cool cos I only met her once in NP when we were queuing for bus during RED Camp, and both of us only attended the first day. Didn't expect to meet each other again in MJ. And then I found out that she was running for Council too, so some day after school I saw her pasting posters around the school and decided to go around with her haha. (Addon: kewl thing is she's in the same event as me now! :d) The reason why This paragraph is after Bio lab cos PE is after Bio Lab on Tues. LOL
So ya...Council Campaigning finally ended. Phew. Really damn tired actually. Stayed back after school today for results and helped to take down posters around the school.
Anyway that's my poster. :P
The first thing we had to do was a 30s video and i still remembered i put blutack on my phone so that it would stand so that i can film myself LOL. Totally epic. And then i did group rally with a bunch of awesome people (aka Hidaya, Trena, Asyilah, Darren) I think our video was damn cool can; but the rally is like 1.5min per person and there was really not enough time for us to show the whole video. It's like 600+MB so i can't even upload it to the net :/ I spent the whole night doing it and slept at like 2am...I didn't even prepare for my speech and I totally impromptu. But i guess it didn't go that badly.
Things that happened: Road Race, i think all the mascots were damn cool; Chem test, and failing it (argh.); everyone stuck on Draw Something and my friends complaining about my drawings cos they dont understand what the heck im drawing oops; okay what else. I have a lot to say but i suddenly forgot.
And the train delay this morning. Sigh I lazy to complain about it anymore. Just check my twitter.
I actually abandon my post yesterday and went to sleep cos there was this irritating insect flying around and keeps hitting the lightbulb which makes me damn pissed off. So now i'm back again. Council results was kindda scary, was quite sad that a lot of people who are very capable did not get in D: And I'm really damn thankful for those who voted for me la, cos like i didnt expect some people to vote for me, especially those i just knew for like 1month? or maybe only a few days? And really thanks to those who wished me and luck; i'll try very best to do my best (especially when i realise that a lot of capable people did not get in, the more i should do my best and not like become a piece of shit and like become someone who shouldnt be in council but another person is more worthy) And ya i'll also try my best to cope with studies la..
Went to school today for the first council meeting, and all of us have to plan an event; realised that i really don't know a lot of things cos i was not in council before in secondary school...Okay it's time to learn more stuff!
Anyway i can't remember what else i wanted to say in this post, so I shall end here and study history. BYE. AH CARNIVAL TOMORROW! Labels: life
THE MERIDIAN COUNCIL
PLEASE VOTE FOR ME FOR THE MERIDIAN COUNCIL! I'M NOMINEE NUMBER #28!!
Okay so you may not know me, and I may not know you, you must be thinking "Why should I vote for you?"
I believe that the two most basic characteristics that a leader must have are responsibility and equality. The leader's ultimate goal is to lead a group of people to complete a particular task. Hence having responsibility is very important because at the end of the day, one still has to complete a task. Without responsibility, the person may produce a piece of work that is not up to standard or may not even complete the work on time. Even though equality does not exist (which is the truth, because if equality did exist, all of us would be the same.), i believe that we should do our best for every single person and every single thing because ultimately, a leader needs to be a servant leader. I do not only want to unite the school, not only to improvise the school, not only to bring the school together, but i hope to be able to listen to EVERY SINGLE PERSON in this school because no one is to be neglected, because every single person here belongs to the school.
Okay so you may think I'm talking crap or being chim or whatsoever, but I'm a fun-loving person too! I know when to joke, when to have fun and of course, when to be serious.
Next question. What I want to do for the school. Honestly, I don't know what I can do. I know there are some problems, like the toilet near the gym no toilet paper, the buying of notes every single day is very troublesome, the fact that J1s do not have homerooms, etc. I can't promise you I will do this this this because I dont know what I am able to do, and if these plans can really be carried out (since many things have to go through teachers, and etc.) I can only promise I understand what you guys are facing, I can only promise I will do my best, even if I may not be the best of the best.
You have 10 votes. I only need 1 vote from you. If you have a vote to spare, and if you think I can do the job, please vote for me, thank you! I understand that the 30s video and rally may not be enough for you to understand me, but if you still have any questions you can ask me through any platforms, like Facebook or Twitter. Do follow my twitter too! @HAHAHjoo Spread this message to all your friends. Most importantly, I really thank you for sparing time to read this! Labels: life
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Narration
HELLO! OMG I'm finally back here typing and uploading pictures....The last time i blogged was on 10 May..that's like three weeks ago! So busy cos there were tests almost every week and with PW kicking in, workload is getting kindda crazy...But I'm still staying sane of course (: Okay I shall try to recall whatever that has happened for the past three weeks and summarise them!
TMC went down to MI to support MSB for their match against AC but apparently it rained so....(For more pictures please check out my instagram!) I think this was on 9 May when we had Leaders Appreciation!
MI has GNC so we all bought cookies, drinks, etc there and ate...If only MJ has some cafes too..hmm
Thank goodness leaders appreciation was successful. It was the first time I was helping out with the technical stuff for an event and looking at the event run through, planning and carrying out an event is really difficult...
Week9 was the craziest week I remember cos I had Chem test, and History test (Also known as Closed Book Timed Assignment) Still stuck at S grade for chem zz Needs to study harder hais. It was my first time writing a history essay after like 6 months...And the difficulty increased...You'll never understand how crazy it is to write a history essay in 45mins. MidYears is like 4essays in 3hours. This requires more stamina than running 2.4, seriously. Sigh. Damn stressed. It's like you know you dont have enough time, you have to complete it, but then you really feel like giving up cos it absorbs so much of your energy. It's not about writing, you have to write and think...So torturous.
But anyway week9 was the first week i ever reached home at 4pm on Monday. And I had a proper lunch after school.
And then I ended week9 with PW meeting (for GPP) and studying more history.
Week 10 was a short week; smart school swaped Wednesday and Thursday's timetables around, so Wednesday felt like a Thursday while Thursday felt like a Friday.
MSB Finals. (Wednesday) It was the night when we all became fans of of the soccer team! They're amazing, I swear.
We had an icecream parade on Thursday and official declare of full day off on Friday by Ms Lai! :DD
Colosseum after Thursday. Another successful event!!
Had laksa+niangdoufu for lunch. Spice. My lips was swollen after eating it x.x But it was nice!!
Then we all bought candy floss which came down to our school during Colosseum!! SO BIG AND FLUFFY.
Ended week10 going out and having dinner with the rest of XXX
Missing in photo: Charis and Weiling.
Went to get a new phone cover and bought some stuff before meeting the rest while they went to karoke. Geez, I miss Karaoke sessions with them! Heard interesting stories from them (as usual); Having weird feelings towards certain topics; but i guess what we can do as friends is just to support.
My fringe is damn freaking long and my hair is damn freaking thick i need a haircut. Ugh.
Spent the rest of my weekend trying to study GP...And organising my worksheets, phone apps, desktop documents..GP exam was....uhhh okay...Nothing much to comment on cos well i guess my English sucks..Shall just try my best to bulk up (I dont know how, when History readings and my other subjects are already so demanding sigh)
After GP: JUBILA10N!! MOST AWESOME SHIT EVER.
Yummy food (pizzzzzzzza, 老伴, sogurt, satay) + awesome performances esp by MJ DANCE and Mr Lau and Mr Wong ((((:
Today. Lecture starts. Finally had time to spend with my classmates. The only times i'll be able to bond with my class is only when i step down from everything im involved in (as always)..I'm so sorry i feel so guilty for spending so little time with my classmates cos i'm always somewhere else during events helping out, doing this, doing that, even if i've got no duties assigned!
Had lunch at Manhattan. Sorry no picture on main dish cos my photo damn fail -_-" thanks to the lighting ugh.
Feeling hungry now shall go eat dinnnnnerrrr! Wow, what a long post. Think the next time i'll blog should be after Midyears. :/ Busy month ahead urgh. Labels: life
17 years on Earth and going
Every year on 10 May people would wish that I grow fatter
Every year on 10 May I would most probably be studying hard for exams (but i still never do well for them)
Every year on 10 May it would just be a very normal day, just like every other day, except that people would wish me 'happy birthday'
Of course I don't belong to the upper class of this society so my birthdays aint celebrated with lots of joy.
This year, I just feel like crying, cos i just couldnt take things anymore. I just feel really tired and sick of everything.
Nevertheless, I am very grateful all those who still remembers my birthday and bothered about me (even though I'm almost like an insignificant speck of dust)
Life goes on. Back to Gorbachev and tomorrow mcDeltaT. I miss you, you, you, and you, and a lot of you. Labels: life
may day
I never intend to write this. Because nothing much has happened for the past one week. Yet too many things have happened. This will be a random post with random thoughts and random crap cos I have too many things to say; but i dont know where to start and how to end.
Ms Lai said 'If something is not your priority, you will never make it.' I feel like I've made so many freaking mistakes. I know people are judging me; I know they will think I'm a hypocrite (or maybe thats what i think of myself) ; there's only one thing i can say: I'm sorry. So many commitments; how to handle everything?
I was never as strong as what I think people think I am. Just because I never give that flustered face doesn't mean that I'm not feeling flustered. It's exactly because I'm flustered thats why I pull a straight face to make sure everything is right. But I guess even if one day i break down this outer shell nobody would give a damn about me anyway #foeveralone
Emotional struggle everyday.
Since you never knew what you wanted to do and where you wanted to go, you jolly well study hard in MJ and make sure you produce results. And the only way to produce results is to constantly tell yourself that you're not good enough. Nothing must ever make me love anything in this place. Because it's not good enough. The moment you accept the way things are happening, you will be complacent. So you can't//
It's an emotional struggle deciding what to do and thinking whether what you're doing is right.
It's an emotional struggle thinking what others are thinking.
It's an emotional struggle for me everyday.
On the verge of breaking down every single day. And then remembering that there's no one who is going to support you even if you fall; so the only thing you can do is to try your very best to maintain your balance and walk across this tightrope successfully one step at a time.
Yes. I'm pulling a straight face everyday. But do you ever know what I'm thinking?
And yesterday I realised the same sentence said by two different people can bring different tones. I forgot that. And therefore, they are two different people afterall.
It's Labour Day.
Screw this freaking hot weather; I'm sweating like mad as I type this; I shall go to my bedroom and sleep. And study hard. Very hard. Labels: life
Mid Term
Reached home at about 8 almost everyday for the whole of this week except for Friday. Superbly drained and spent my whole day sleeping (15hours of sleep) I haven't done a single piece of work so I'm going to start soon after this post. :/
Monday, 16/4: Sports updates by TMC - Hi I'm Jonathan, and I'm Jonathan. Seriously epic. Too many Jonathans in TMC! Stayed back after school for cheer training; and cheers it's the first time i blew up a balloon (kay i really suck at blowing balloons ;_;) and we cheered while running around the school track.
Tuesday, 17/4: Had Bio Practical and it was damn fun making yeast balls and some weird stuff. Will post a picture here once I get the photos from Trena. And we decided to change the class whatsapp icon before Kit changes it :P Nerdy class changing our class whatsapp group icon to a picture taken every week at some science practical every week. HAHA.
Eating everyone's favourite (yet fattening) Mango Cheese Tart
Had Investiture Rehearsal; went home and slept. Sigh basically i didnt do much work this week lols.
Wednesday, 18/4: Went down to IJC after school to cheer for Meridian Soccer Girls (against MI) Tough match, strong opponents; but we never stopped cheering for them. IJC's school compound is damn freaking cool; their canteen doesnt even look like a school canteen, it looks like a hawker centre or something and their school compound looks like a shopping mall LOL.
Match ended earlier than I expected so I went down to Orchard to watch MJ CO and Guitar Ensem perform + helped the two videographers who were on their own doing video duty for the first time...But I didn't do much actually cos I can't even remember the last time i did video duty/touched a tape video camera. Pathetic shit. We don't even have spare battery for the video camera. I thought AHS was the worst. Until I came here.
Felt like a failure cos I couldn't see Kit even after starring at the crowd for damn long; and I only saw him when he stood up at the end ;_; And the only thing this kid did was to ask me to send an sms to the class for him THANKS MAN THANKS
Thursday, 19/4: Long day, MAM Last Common Lunch Contest, at least we weren't last; seeing people spam the MJC Ignite wall with dumb comments on why they love Math. Ms Fauzana gave us KitKats after GP. She's so nice!
Attempted to change the class whatsapp group icon to this picture cos the photos are really getting too nerdy HAHA (we've had pictures of cells taken through the lens of microscope, the yeast balls, conical flask with some solution) but Kit claims that his dad will sue me for using his brand without permission (lame kid -_-) HAHAHAHA CANT STAND HIS LAMENESS SERIOUSLY
Had PE; legs and arms and stomach hurt like mad; then chiongged for Investiture Full Dress Rehearsal. Siao; stand with Court shoes...My legs hurt more after that T_T So tired and slept without doing any work again.
Friday, 20/4: First period: History. Haha really love my two history teachers; can't decide who is better...They're equally epic. Ms Lee explained to us the breakdown of USA-USSR relationship in terms of a boy-girl relationship. So funny! :P
Received PW Draft2 back and happy that it was kindda accepted so yeah! Left with the Showcase Plan to be edited (: Had Chem Prac after that and Mr Chan is epic as usual ROFL. Had Chinese Elective after school, and it was quite interesting+fun!!
They invited people down to perform to us, with songs like 那些年，隐形的翅膀 and a lot of others haha.
First time doing video duty after sooooo long and was pleased with my performance even though i jerked a lot and there are a lot of awkward movements that I made (eg zooming too fast, etc)
Can't stand how MJ splits video and photog and infocomm into three different CCAs with some Photog people on duty keep walking #likeaboss covering the video cam -_- And students who have no sense of awareness at all also. WTS?! When I was doing duty at Orchard for CO and Guitar performance, MJ people just walk right into the video camera whereas the people who really saw the existence of the camera was this American couple. Superbly disappointed that people don't see photog and video as equal.
Went home and watched 星空 instead of studying :/
Can I be weak for once and say I really miss the people who would make me laugh all day :( I don't want to be strong anymore. Ah oh wells i should start on my homework now. Labels: life
TJ Mardi Gras 2012
Was at TJ attending their Mardi Gras yesterday; wasted $$$ but i guess it's okay. Cos it was freaking awesome!!! And I finally understood where I went wrong. Because I forgot my goal. I was venturing around TJ and I remembered how much I loved the place; cos i always had this impression even when I was in p5. Feeling sad; but life goes on. Like what Kelly said, it doesn't matter where I am now (since I can't change anything duh) ; i just have to study hard and do well.
The first person I saw was obviously Yuanteng since I had to get the tickets from her..(Oh i just realised I didnt see Jane yesterday.) Then I saw Janice, Alicia and Leeqing. Kelly called to ask where I was while I saw Lindy the mad woman who was waving frantically at me ROFLMAO ITS DAMN FUNNY and she kept asking me to buy food from her booth. HRMPH
Chloe with her classmates and saying the f word once in every second; nothing changes.
And after that Gemaine who was mending the Haunted House, which was scarier at the start since the people had more energy but towards the end wasn't fun anymore (according to Chloe and the rest who went in later) Feeling kindda dumb cos I got scared out of nothing :( I realised how much of a scaredy cat i am. T_T
As usual, Kelly welcomed me with a poke -_-" Things never change. Sigh. And another poke when we were taking a photo ;_; Unexpected moments. Thanks man thanks.
And of course Alicia and Rachael at the anti-smoking booth; and the guitar peeps aka Xinyu and Jiawen...Missed their performance cos it was swapped with some other performance and we didnt know. Sigh dont know when i'll get to see my friends perform again.
Seeing three people sitting down preparing to camwhore at the side and immediately concluded that it must Joey and the rest. (aka Daine and Wenxuan!) HEH.
Me and Wenxuan's rabbit ears HAHAHA. Looking cui cos I slept for 6 hours for the whole week :( Thanks to the damn math tutorial which I thought we were supposed to do but actually the lecture hasn't covered enough content for us to do yet...Okay Lin Qing slept for 3 hours just to do math tutorial so I wasn't the worst HAHAHA. And also thanks to math tutorial, i did a shit piece of work for History tutorial...Feeling extremely guilty :( Receiving back my first piece of history essay next week....hoping it isn't THAT badly done hopefully...And yes I'm studying chemistry cos there's a lecture test next week. Bleargh and there's council every single day next week so yes I'll be even more cui next week....And after investiture I have to start on my next event which is Leaders Investiture. #lesigh when the no. of hours you spent in school > no. of hours you spent sleeping. Pathetic life.
SDMA is out; yeah but going for council next week = can't go for CCA. I wish I had more time to study history and to go for CCA.
I guess next week's post will be more on Council? First council meeting with Atlas people only next week! Labels: life
good friday week
Long weekend just ended, hectic weeks ahead. But hang in there 6 more weeks and the holidays would be here! Sigh I just gave up cheerleading cos I seriously think I cannot cope. Aiya I made this decision while I was studying history, so what more can you expect from me? Whenever I study history i just feel depressed, and even more depressed today cos I couldn't understand a shit because I dont understand all the political terms, and they really don't make sense to me hais :(( Kindda wasted my weekend cos I spent Friday outside, Saturday sleeping cos I was sick and Sunday starring at my History notes which made no sense to me at all boohoohoo
Okay i will mug from tomorrow onwards! Yes, 3 periods of break for chionging homework tomorrow. #icandoit
Friday was out with some bunch of epic people. (: Time you enjoy wasting is not time wasted.
CCA Camp, I tried bonding with people, but i guess I need more time. JC makes me feeling like im doing everything halfheartedly. I meet so many new people, but I dont have enough time to understand these new people properly. And before I could, I have to understand new people. I really miss CCA in Secondary school, it used to be something that everyone looks forward to, like a gateway after a whole week of lessons. And you've got so much time to bond.
Talking about CCA, I went back to AHS to watch the handover ceremony. Do you understand how important CCA is? It's the only group of people you spend 4 years of your life in secondary school with, unlike your class which is changed every year. I rushed back from Council meeting on Friday. Thank god it ended much much earlier than i expected, even though i still missed part of the handover. If I could film my life I would really be seen as going at the speed of light cos I really missed my CCA. Really glad that our batch laid the grounds for the juniors. And watching all the juniors grow. It's really amazing. I realised that people don't really change; their character remains the same, just that their thoughts grow more mature. Probably why the chinese say "江山易改 本性难移"
The rest of the week- me flunking gases test (aish, it was too physics for me, i give up), receiving bio test (quite disappointed with myself cos i know if the same test was given to the whole of 4F im sure everyone would score damn well except for me) How is MJ a mugger school man, all of you are wrong!!! I need to stop being complacent. I need to work damn hard to achieve better results. I dont want to screw a levels like how i screwed o levels. I dont want to go to a place i never wanted to go again. Life is in the control of my hands. I cannot procrastinate. I cannot feel tired. I cannot fall sick. I must be efficient. I must be productive. I need to study hard. I can do this. I must eat more I must sleep earlier I need all the energy I can have.
Nyehh the minnie mouse is quite cute actually heh.
Sometime ago I realised that every single person is different, even though two people you know may have the same trait, they still can't give you the exact same feeling. Just some random thoughts; really left me thinking, am I missing the feeling or am i missing the person/people?
Gambateh! Labels: life
Stress
Pictures are taken from Tumblr! Went to tumblr after I was done with history and i realised that there were a couple of posts on my dashboard that totally describes my feelings now.
Exactly what I am feeling.
I swear I was damn sad when I saw the results. Because i have no idea how the allocations were done. I didn't even have a say. I wanted to cry; I teared; but I forced myself not to cry. I dont know how many decisions that I made were wrong. I dont know why didnt I go to Poly. I dont know what Im doing here. Going to school at 630am; reaching home at 8pm. Studying even more after that. Studying what? Stuff which I probably wouldn't use when I get into the society. I dont even get to do things that I like here. People deprive me of opportunities even though i've been trying very hard to seize these opportunities. Why wasn't I brave enough to go to Poly even though it's harder to get to uni, even though everyone says that JC is better. But so what if its easier to get into uni through JC? You still have to work extremely hard right? Do you think you can get into a university if you don't work hard in JC? Bullshit. There's nothing called easy. Theres only something called working hard.
I'm damn stressed. Every single teacher is chasing me for tutorials, I imagine how they would look at me each time i dont do my tutorial or each time i can't answer their question in class. I can't stand how no matter how low of a profile i keep in class, teachers keep calling my name. I dislike that. I have to watch what I say, watch what i do. I'm damn stressed. I'm damn busy. I haven't had proper meals. I'm losing more weight when I'm supposed to gain weight. My hair loss is getting worse everyday. I need a break. You know the feeling of wanting to get away from everything? I haven't even had a proper break yet.
I am moving so aimlessly. I am damn tired. I want to sleep.
I want to laugh out loud. Why can't I do that anymore :( I hate life. Labels: life
March Holidays?
TGIF.
I can't even produce a post once a week. Every single day is so tiring and I just have to make sure I complete all that I'm supposed to do, get enough rest and sleep so that i still can fight on the next day. Its like a string (which is not flexible at all) is being stretched so much that it feels like it's going to tear and break any time soon. I guess that's how you can describe JC life.
Was March holidays even like a holiday? Holidays should just be renamed to 'Study Break'. Didn't even have enough rest, but here I am, in term2 already. Time seems to be passing faster than ever, it's been about 2 months since I entered JC, and April is coming soon; it's so fast that even though I havent blogged for 2 weeks it still felt as though I just blogged yesterday. So many things happened, so so so many that I really can't remember all of them.
March Holidays was so so so packed that I only managed to meet some of my secondary school friends. Everyone had different schedules, etc. No time to meetup; so we had to resort to apps: LINE. Introduced that to the rest because whatsapp is not free on iPhone. And then they started spamming the conversation with stickers. To an extent that I have to shut the notifications so that i can concentrate on work. I really don't understand why my bunch of friends are so free; they have time to shop, watch dramas, etc everyday. Whereas Im stuck doing my work everyday. Either I have really poor time management skills (i'm trying my best to improve in this area) or they really have no work to be done. Hrmph. Will never introduce that app to people who spams conversation anymore. haha.
They started playing with Simsimi; which one of them decides to call it Simi and another decides to call it simisimi -_- And of course they went to teach Simsimi to respond to our names. Epic.
Also started playing Draw Something; I think the hype is going down...but anyway, all my friends can't stand my horrible ununderstandable drawings. HAHAHA. Oops I'm sorry! x.x
I spent my March Holidays mostly with TMC! Discussing on event (Council Investiture), Bonding, Presidential elections. Were supposed to learn new cheers by the Cheering Comm during Presidential elections, but we ended up listening to songs, singing, watching people dance (Kristle and Sheeqal) instead. haha. Awesome shit. (Post continued on Saturday 24/3 due to the fact that I was too tired to blog after doing some stuff for Investiture planning.) Yesterday was spent with TMC at the Soccer match between TJ and MJ even though it was cancelled due to lightning alert/ wet weather.
Photobombs forever during Council. Credits to Pauline.
I need to bond more with the Council, especially those in Atlas. I dont know all the 4H2 people! Gosh. People are waving to me in school but I don't even know who they are. They know my names, surprisingly. Epic fail me.
The happiest day ever since school started was 17 March when I spammed drama till 4am (Y) Okay that was the only time i watched drama I swear, other than during breaks in school. AHHHH I LOVE SKIPBEAT SO MUCH! It's damn awesome; the Japanese are really damn good at stories; whereas Ivy Chen's acting is superb!
Week1 of school was freaking tiring; PW has kicked in...In order to fully contribute to Council and CCA, I have dropped my REACH programme. But oh wells, the adhoc ones seem fun too! Crazy amount of work but life goes on! Okay back to Bio. I guess the next time i'll blog would be 2 weeks later? Ohgosh; I hope I won't reach to a state where I only blog once per month seriously. Labels: life
the end is the beginning
OKAY HI. I finally have the time to blog cos Council Campaigning is finally over and today is the last day of school (Y) Okay I have a lot of things to talk about so i think this post will be damn long (but i have to try to keep it short cos im like damn sleepy now and i still have to crawl out of bed tomorrow to go to school!) But i have so many things to say and i dont know where to start from... T_T
Okay I shall just random and sorry if my post makes no sense LOL
Okay so we had bio lab on food tests...and i dropped the test tube. -_- but heng the test tube didn't break! :P
I had PE on someday and then i met this person and she was like "You look familiar...Did you go for RED Camp?" HAHA. She's in the same class as me for PE. Like super cool cos I only met her once in NP when we were queuing for bus during RED Camp, and both of us only attended the first day. Didn't expect to meet each other again in MJ. And then I found out that she was running for Council too, so some day after school I saw her pasting posters around the school and decided to go around with her haha. (Addon: kewl thing is she's in the same event as me now! :d) The reason why This paragraph is after Bio lab cos PE is after Bio Lab on Tues. LOL
So ya...Council Campaigning finally ended. Phew. Really damn tired actually. Stayed back after school today for results and helped to take down posters around the school.
Anyway that's my poster. :P
The first thing we had to do was a 30s video and i still remembered i put blutack on my phone so that it would stand so that i can film myself LOL. Totally epic. And then i did group rally with a bunch of awesome people (aka Hidaya, Trena, Asyilah, Darren) I think our video was damn cool can; but the rally is like 1.5min per person and there was really not enough time for us to show the whole video. It's like 600+MB so i can't even upload it to the net :/ I spent the whole night doing it and slept at like 2am...I didn't even prepare for my speech and I totally impromptu. But i guess it didn't go that badly.
Things that happened: Road Race, i think all the mascots were damn cool; Chem test, and failing it (argh.); everyone stuck on Draw Something and my friends complaining about my drawings cos they dont understand what the heck im drawing oops; okay what else. I have a lot to say but i suddenly forgot.
And the train delay this morning. Sigh I lazy to complain about it anymore. Just check my twitter.
I actually abandon my post yesterday and went to sleep cos there was this irritating insect flying around and keeps hitting the lightbulb which makes me damn pissed off. So now i'm back again. Council results was kindda scary, was quite sad that a lot of people who are very capable did not get in D: And I'm really damn thankful for those who voted for me la, cos like i didnt expect some people to vote for me, especially those i just knew for like 1month? or maybe only a few days? And really thanks to those who wished me and luck; i'll try very best to do my best (especially when i realise that a lot of capable people did not get in, the more i should do my best and not like become a piece of shit and like become someone who shouldnt be in council but another person is more worthy) And ya i'll also try my best to cope with studies la..
Went to school today for the first council meeting, and all of us have to plan an event; realised that i really don't know a lot of things cos i was not in council before in secondary school...Okay it's time to learn more stuff!
Anyway i can't remember what else i wanted to say in this post, so I shall end here and study history. BYE. AH CARNIVAL TOMORROW! Labels: life
THE MERIDIAN COUNCIL
PLEASE VOTE FOR ME FOR THE MERIDIAN COUNCIL! I'M NOMINEE NUMBER #28!!
Okay so you may not know me, and I may not know you, you must be thinking "Why should I vote for you?"
I believe that the two most basic characteristics that a leader must have are responsibility and equality. The leader's ultimate goal is to lead a group of people to complete a particular task. Hence having responsibility is very important because at the end of the day, one still has to complete a task. Without responsibility, the person may produce a piece of work that is not up to standard or may not even complete the work on time. Even though equality does not exist (which is the truth, because if equality did exist, all of us would be the same.), i believe that we should do our best for every single person and every single thing because ultimately, a leader needs to be a servant leader. I do not only want to unite the school, not only to improvise the school, not only to bring the school together, but i hope to be able to listen to EVERY SINGLE PERSON in this school because no one is to be neglected, because every single person here belongs to the school.
Okay so you may think I'm talking crap or being chim or whatsoever, but I'm a fun-loving person too! I know when to joke, when to have fun and of course, when to be serious.
Next question. What I want to do for the school. Honestly, I don't know what I can do. I know there are some problems, like the toilet near the gym no toilet paper, the buying of notes every single day is very troublesome, the fact that J1s do not have homerooms, etc. I can't promise you I will do this this this because I dont know what I am able to do, and if these plans can really be carried out (since many things have to go through teachers, and etc.) I can only promise I understand what you guys are facing, I can only promise I will do my best, even if I may not be the best of the best.
You have 10 votes. I only need 1 vote from you. If you have a vote to spare, and if you think I can do the job, please vote for me, thank you! I understand that the 30s video and rally may not be enough for you to understand me, but if you still have any questions you can ask me through any platforms, like Facebook or Twitter. Do follow my twitter too! @HAHAHjoo Spread this message to all your friends. Most importantly, I really thank you for sparing time to read this! Labels: life
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