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Taurus; stubborn; is shy but passionate once you know me. 要让我爱上一样东西/一个人是件非常难的一件事，但当我一爱上就没回头路了。I love chocolates, but not vanilla or strawberry or white chocolates. 我什么都可以不吃，可是一定不能不吃巧克力。I like watching dramas, blogging, getting hooked on the internet, sleeping (like a pig and owl), etc. I dislike strawberries. I hate strawberries. I really don't like strawberries. Or any food that is pink in colour. They just disgust me. I listen to English Pop, Cpop, Kpop. I love Aaron 炎亚纶 and I respect Lady Gaga.
OKAY HI. I finally have the time to blog cos Council Campaigning is finally over and today is the last day of school (Y) Okay I have a lot of things to talk about so i think this post will be damn long (but i have to try to keep it short cos im like damn sleepy now and i still have to crawl out of bed tomorrow to go to school!) But i have so many things to say and i dont know where to start from... T_T
Okay I shall just random and sorry if my post makes no sense LOL
Okay so we had bio lab on food tests...and i dropped the test tube. -_- but heng the test tube didn't break! :P
I had PE on someday and then i met this person and she was like "You look familiar...Did you go for RED Camp?" HAHA. She's in the same class as me for PE. Like super cool cos I only met her once in NP when we were queuing for bus during RED Camp, and both of us only attended the first day. Didn't expect to meet each other again in MJ. And then I found out that she was running for Council too, so some day after school I saw her pasting posters around the school and decided to go around with her haha. (Addon: kewl thing is she's in the same event as me now! :d) The reason why This paragraph is after Bio lab cos PE is after Bio Lab on Tues. LOL
So ya...Council Campaigning finally ended. Phew. Really damn tired actually. Stayed back after school today for results and helped to take down posters around the school.
Anyway that's my poster. :P
The first thing we had to do was a 30s video and i still remembered i put blutack on my phone so that it would stand so that i can film myself LOL. Totally epic. And then i did group rally with a bunch of awesome people (aka Hidaya, Trena, Asyilah, Darren) I think our video was damn cool can; but the rally is like 1.5min per person and there was really not enough time for us to show the whole video. It's like 600+MB so i can't even upload it to the net :/ I spent the whole night doing it and slept at like 2am...I didn't even prepare for my speech and I totally impromptu. But i guess it didn't go that badly.
Things that happened: Road Race, i think all the mascots were damn cool; Chem test, and failing it (argh.); everyone stuck on Draw Something and my friends complaining about my drawings cos they dont understand what the heck im drawing oops; okay what else. I have a lot to say but i suddenly forgot.
And the train delay this morning. Sigh I lazy to complain about it anymore. Just check my twitter.
I actually abandon my post yesterday and went to sleep cos there was this irritating insect flying around and keeps hitting the lightbulb which makes me damn pissed off. So now i'm back again. Council results was kindda scary, was quite sad that a lot of people who are very capable did not get in D: And I'm really damn thankful for those who voted for me la, cos like i didnt expect some people to vote for me, especially those i just knew for like 1month? or maybe only a few days? And really thanks to those who wished me and luck; i'll try very best to do my best (especially when i realise that a lot of capable people did not get in, the more i should do my best and not like become a piece of shit and like become someone who shouldnt be in council but another person is more worthy) And ya i'll also try my best to cope with studies la..
Went to school today for the first council meeting, and all of us have to plan an event; realised that i really don't know a lot of things cos i was not in council before in secondary school...Okay it's time to learn more stuff!
Anyway i can't remember what else i wanted to say in this post, so I shall end here and study history. BYE. AH CARNIVAL TOMORROW!
PLEASE VOTE FOR ME FOR THE MERIDIAN COUNCIL! I'M NOMINEE NUMBER #28!!
Okay so you may not know me, and I may not know you, you must be thinking "Why should I vote for you?"
I believe that the two most basic characteristics that a leader must have are responsibility and equality. The leader's ultimate goal is to lead a group of people to complete a particular task. Hence having responsibility is very important because at the end of the day, one still has to complete a task. Without responsibility, the person may produce a piece of work that is not up to standard or may not even complete the work on time. Even though equality does not exist (which is the truth, because if equality did exist, all of us would be the same.), i believe that we should do our best for every single person and every single thing because ultimately, a leader needs to be a servant leader. I do not only want to unite the school, not only to improvise the school, not only to bring the school together, but i hope to be able to listen to EVERY SINGLE PERSON in this school because no one is to be neglected, because every single person here belongs to the school.
Okay so you may think I'm talking crap or being chim or whatsoever, but I'm a fun-loving person too! I know when to joke, when to have fun and of course, when to be serious.
Next question. What I want to do for the school. Honestly, I don't know what I can do. I know there are some problems, like the toilet near the gym no toilet paper, the buying of notes every single day is very troublesome, the fact that J1s do not have homerooms, etc. I can't promise you I will do this this this because I dont know what I am able to do, and if these plans can really be carried out (since many things have to go through teachers, and etc.) I can only promise I understand what you guys are facing, I can only promise I will do my best, even if I may not be the best of the best.
You have 10 votes. I only need 1 vote from you. If you have a vote to spare, and if you think I can do the job, please vote for me, thank you! I understand that the 30s video and rally may not be enough for you to understand me, but if you still have any questions you can ask me through any platforms, like Facebook or Twitter. Do follow my twitter too! @HAHAHjoo Spread this message to all your friends. Most importantly, I really thank you for sparing time to read this!
It's been a week since i wrote a post here. I'm currently in the school library... With my history file (within which are hundreds of pages of notes and readings that i am supposed to catch up with) and my chem tutorials and assignments to be completed, math tutorials as well..of course there's PW research to be done too. As I turn my head to my left, i actually see many people running and the PE teacher standing there probably taking timings of the run..
JC life. Is tutorials tutorials tutorials and more tutorials; plus readings readings and readings and never ending amount of readings that i can never catch up with. The amount of homework and things to be done just keeps increasing and increasing, even if you're done with one the next day there'll be more to complete. And of course PE. Running like at least 2km per lesson is the norm; whats more there're 2 lessons per week. My legs are aching. Sigh.
Recently just heard of a friend who is going to Poly (even though im not sure if it's true); some people thought that it was kindda unexpected, but i guess is expected that he'll do unexpected things. (as always anyways.) Sometimes I dont know why I'm in JC either; I guess its good to have some buffer time to think about what to do in the future? But it seems like many people who are in JC already have an aim, have a goal as to where they wanna go; medicine, law, etc. I am suddenly so lost and don't even have an aim now.
It really feels like everyone else is going to banking, finance, business, medicine, law, all the fields that you give you big bucks. And it seems like the only route after JC is definitely University. But none of the courses seems interesting enough, they all look so dry and boring and yeah they only serve a purpose to give a job (if there even are job vacancies by the time we go to society to work) and let you earn big bucks. But are people actually happy? They are just working for money, not even something that they love. I dont understand. I really dont.
Why on earth did a choose a path that i never expected to land on, just because everyone tells me that JC is the right way, is the sure way to success, just because everyone is going to a JC. Why am I not brave enough to take a path of my choice (even if i do not know how it will turn out to be) but not what everyone approves of? I really wonder how my life would be different from now if I had gone to poly seriously.
Of course, I'm back to doing something I've always liked in CCA again, even though it's not a high-profile CCA (as usual) but at least i'm doing something i like and not following the crowd. Not fated to photog, oh wells.
Okay back to Chem. Meeting the rest of the people for dinner tonight. Long day to go, but it's something that keeps me going. Till then. Hoping for the best for Council.
Slowly settling down into my new life for the next two years; even though PW/CCA hasn't really started and thus we haven't experienced the full rigor yet..Supposed to be doing my Bio tutorial now but i decided to blog since I haven't been here for a long time and i have so many things to say.
Being in MJ isn't that bad, at least I can cope quite well (As compared to what i heard from people in other schools) but i guess it isn't the exact place i belong to. But no matter what, I really think that i've done my best for O levels, and since this is the result, there's nothing i can do to change about it anyway, so i guess i can only make the fullest out of everything i have here in MJ and not suffer here.
I can't say I hate MJ, neither can i say i love this school. It's just a place where I never expected to enter, a life which i never expected to experience. I swear life is playing a joke on me. I used to be in an environment where i spoke chinese all the way (in lower primary) then i had to get used to speaking in english without a word of chinese (in upper primary). After that i went to AHS where everyone else speaks in many languages (chinese+english+hokkien+malay etc) and now I'm in a place where i have to speak full English again. What is this man.
Recently celebrated Valentines' Day with Kelly and Sheen :) thanks for the gifts people. I miss being a junior. Like as in really being a junior where i have to take orders from the seniors and do as what they instructed.
Anyway, heres the main portion of my sharing today.
Three years ago, back when I was in Secondary two, Sheen actually told us "If you never try you never know". I really didn't know, and so I tried and did my best, and we really got into the Top10 of NE4. Until today, I still think it's quite unbelievable to have gone through the whole process of creating an animation, and knowing so many people through the competition. Recently, a friend just reminded me of this again. Just have a little faith, and the most unexpected things may really happen. You know what, everything in our life is a gamble. Cos you never know what results you'll get. So if you don't gamble, how would you know what results you'll get? Besides, it's not like trying out something would do any harm. Stop being afraid of failing already. How many times have you failed? Not like you have never failed before. It's just another time. Maybe if you hang in there enough you'll pass. Or even excel.
And yes. I'm talking about running for council. Goodnight. Till then.
Hello people! I'm back from orientation and a few days of official lessons and chionging tutorials and CCA showcase! Wow so many things have been happening and so I was really damn busy and had no time at all to blog! Gonna chiong this post damn fast cos I still have to try to figure out my Chem tutorial and read my Bio notes....(okay sian) Anyway the photos in the post don't belong to me (like duh right since i wasnt the photographer haha...Got the urge to snatch the camera from the photographer each time i see people taking photos. I miss doing photog duties seriously!!!) But I will credit people according okay! :)
Firstly, I was damn happy to find out that I was in Atlas (one of the five houses in MJ. the rest includes Callisto, Miranda, Triton, Phobos) cos ATLAS IS AWESOME MA.
This thing is super cool right! Like really damn chio can!! Yellow is so striking and boomz! x) Really many many many many many thanks to the OGLs and Atlas J2s for putting in so much effort!!!
Day1 of orientation was basically ice breakers and then wet games; got super wet like seriously from head to toe all drenched and water is dripping from me as i walked ;_; But it was super fun la; went to ask friends from other classes and heard that they played other games so i suppose different classes/OGs had different routes of games so we didnt get to play some of the games (awww) And of course we got to learn the house cheers too haha x)
Day2 was amazing race (which is known as MMM) and we had to report to Sentosa straight in the morning. Met up with the class before going together as the class at VivoCity. Not a very good day for me because I was having a flu after the wet games on Day1 (things always go wrong on the day of amazing race for me I just don't know why. UGH. but i still survived! 真想拼命十三妹！) but I still had a lot of fun!! Super epic games; and of course bonded with the class. I always can't go high/enthu enough during orientation cos i'm always sick/ having no appetite (irritated much this always happens to me during orientation -_-) and then obviously I don't have energy to shout right. But I still tried my best to cheer la!
Time to introduce my class before I move on to talk about the games. Hi, I'm from 12S306. (Atlas 6) We're a class of Bio students with 17girls and 4guys. We are a rojak class with people taking BCM_ we all take different H1 subjects, ranging from History to Literature and last but not least GSC (General Studies in Chinese) ok quite a cool class cos everyone takes all the endangered combinations HAHA. there's like less than 10 people doing BCMH. Out of 800+ people in the level. Cool right. Actually not very cool when you think about the amount BCMH students have to memorise.LOL (but it's still better than doing physics/econs)
Oh and inside the photo above are our 4 awesome OGLs (from left to right: Yiren, Siti, Farhan, Terrence)
Okay MMM is like damn fun seriously. The first game was super super super epic. Can't imagine we actually have to put marshmallows into our nose and shoot them out (okay disgusting much) I actually suggested taking a photo of the marshmallows that were on the floor and tag everyone on Facebook according to the marshmallows HAHA
There were a couple of those Charades/Pass down the message game. There was one when we had to pass down "Skydiving" And apparently we were near the merlion so i think one of the people in front mistaken the SKY as the MERLION cos he/she probably saw the finger pointing wrongly or something and then started pressing the water cooler LOL which is like totally epic.
The coolest thing was that the teachers actually participated in the amazing race too. HAHA. So at their station we were supposed to sing the school song in a unique way and we rapped it LOL after realising that one of our classmates could beatbox! COOL RIGHT so after that our OGLs started telling other OGLs from other OGs that theres a beatboxer in our class HAHA SUPER FUNNY
We even went to Siloso Beach and played games there (even though it was super hot at that time) And one of the games we played was Tug Of War. Can you imagine it; playing Tug Of War in the beach!! I thought that only happens in stories leh!
After MMM, we had OG dinner together. So shiok! And Farhan told us about ghost stories. And many other stuff as we all took the train back together. Was an awesome bonding session. The best way to bond is really through communicating and talking and sharing.
Day3 was finale. We had a round of mass wet games in the morning; which was something like a war game where the whole J1 level attacked the J2s OGLS; we're supposed to destroy their structures using water bombs haha it actually follows some storyline but im damn lazy to type out the story. After that was preparation for finale.
HAHAHA So everyone is supposed to do a performance..Atlas 5-8 was called Big Bright Blazing Bombastic Buzzing Bumblebees. Cos one of our OGLs were like saying we should add all the B adjectives so that the emcee will have a hard time saying our company name ok epic. HAHA And they even created a cheer for it; and even a "Buzzing Clap"
There was a segment where we did couple dance for our performance and ok guess what the dance steps were choreographed by our two super cute OGLS above ^^^^^ I really don't know how to describe them they're just so AWESOME!!
So basically most of the OGLs lost their voices by the end of MMM but they still continued cheering. And of course orientation ended with a blast in Finale! Performances by all the J1s, OGLs (the different houses), etc. Loved Callisto's one the most; but Atlas was obviously good too!
Had debrief as an OG with our OGLs, they dismissed us and called us back again just to ask us "Out of the three of us, who most handsome" EPIC Y THE OGLS SO CUTE HAHA. But I was really rushing home cos it was damn late and I was really not feeling well man; so yeah fell sick the next day, which was first official day of school (hais.) But nevertheless, really loved orientation and the seniors.
They asked us if we've got anything to say to them; actually im sure everyone does; obviously me too. Being a junior is always the best, but sadly seniors always have to leave. Really love the OGLs and of course all my other seniors a lot. Can never thank them enough because all of them helped me so much and played such a significant role in my life. Sometimes I really wish we can just stop growing up and be forever young where there will always be people taking care of us.
Goodnight for now! Really don't know when I'll be back here again. Tutorials tutorials........
SUP J1s! How was orientation 2012? Bet it must have been fun in all the schools!
Orientation hasn't really started in MJ yet, cos orientation will officially start next Monday with our classmates as our OGMs! We've gotten our classes already, and yes I'm in BCMH (even though it's H1 History and I'm disappointed in the fact that i can take H2 History D;) To be honest, I haven't thought about how to score in my combi, with my poor memory...But I just believe that things will turn out fine since they are the subjects that I like. ^^
Having a sore throat with phlegm now...And still ate chicken rice this morning during break. That's what life is like without Charis nagging at you what not to eat HAHA! She'd be like "Cannot eat chicken, cannot eat egg...Drink honey! Not lemon juice!!" Missing a lot of epic stuff in school last time; our clique with 9 people are all dispersed now. But that should always be how things go, everyone is fighting for their life, is creating their own story.
As much as I still love TJ a lot a lot a lot and really wish I can be there ..I guess MJ is a good place for me to be myself all over again, after the four years in AHS and learning to keep a low profile (-_-) 说好听一点 it's keeping a low profile. 说难听一点 it's being anti-social, not taking initiative. I don't know why I've been trying so hard to be somebody I never was, why I've been doing many things that the society accepts and not what I want. Maybe MJ is where I should belong to with everyone so enthu!
Okay don't think i'll be blogging much anymore cos I'm going to mug hard and play hard! I wish everybody have an awesome college life! :D
Just got back to Singapore; experienced about 2.5 days of life without internet and i kinda like it actually. I dont really know how to explain/describe the feeling though. Oh yeah anyway this blog post is just a random one so i'll be writing some random stuff in different paragraphs that have no link with each other.
I was watching the NEmation!6 clips just now and I really liked these 4 clips so i thought i should just share them with you guys. :) Okay if you are too lazy to read this post, just visit http://nemation.sg and vote for them now! Your vote is crucial for them because voting takes up a portion of their results and you should cast your vote to the team you think should win because every single one of them has put in a lot of effort to produce their 1 minute clip in 3 weeks of hard work. They deserve every single support that you can provide. Besides, you can also stand to win attractive prizes. So just cast your votes!! It doesn't take up a lot of time anyway and it'll be beneficial for you, as well as for the participants!
This is C2, done by Commonwealth Secondary School. I just love the comparison of past and present here. It shows both the similarities and differences very clearly through telling a story!
This is C6, done by Kent Ridge Secondary. I love this because it is really creative, it tells the story from different points of view, from different perspectives. Also, it does not have any vocals and expresses everything through the drawings; so i really thought it's unique and stands out from the rest of the clips.
This is C9, done by School and Science and Technology. The animation may not be as cute as the others, but i liked it because it's quite meaningful and heartwarming ; and i really felt that this video is the best representation of the theme "NS: From Fathers to Sons"
This is C10, done by St Margaret's Secondary School. I liked this animation because they could actually put the three main things together into a story: things used in NS, life in NS, past vs present. And of course how parents care about their children!
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I don't really like watching period dramas, 古装戏 but I watched Scarlet Heart 步步惊心 just because everyone told me it's good. And I just can't get off it. Okay I really love it a lot. I'm watching it everyday on Channel 8 too. And I caught a line from today's episode: 以他的性格，恐怕除了他自己，谁都不会喜欢
就算放得下，也忘不了。每一天都会想念。
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Anyway, JAE results are coming out 2 days later! I pray hard everyday that I'll get into MJ. Okay seriously. I may not work as hard as a lot of people for o levels (who have gotten results that could get them into VJ RJ HCI) but i swear i have worked really hard and never given up even when i really couldn't understand a single shit. (esp in physics and amath) I can't even get into the school of my choice with the results i've gotten, and i just want to get into a jc and work like ten thousand times harder. Thats all that I'm wishing for; is that really too much? But i know that there is every possibility that the COP for MJ will drop again. (and then i'll be posted to NYJ where i know no single person there) or maybe both schools COP will drop and then i will be posted to a NP.
If I were born in a rich family, I would have gone to NP. Because I wouldn't fear failing. I can't possibly take a course which i think i like but i realise later on that i dont really like and i couldn't even excel in it, right? I suddenly don't know what i want to do in the future. What i think is fun (aka what i like) seems so unrealistic. I just don't understand why everyone wants to do Business. Should i just study something more realistic.. Hais. Well, if i get accepted into NP, then i'll be doing something unrealistic (but i'll try my best to produce results, hopefully)
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It's easy to find out how important a person is to you; if you feel sad when he/she leaves your life, it means that he/she is important to you. Sadly, the two important people (other than my parents of course) already left my life. I still keep in contact with one of them; but not with the other already. And the thing is, these two people were in life for a shorter period of time as compared to many people whom i think are not as important as them. You know what, it's really difficult to find friends who totally understands you. It's even harder to find a person who never fail to make you laugh every time.
Happy Chinese New Year! 新年快乐！龙年行大运！
Recently finished a drama Scarlet Heart 步步惊心. Those who haven't watched it, please go watch! It's damn awesome. It's like you'll never hate any of the characters even if they did something that caused harm to others because the 出发点 of their actions are always because of love and friendship. It's such a sad story so the characters cry in every episode but you definitely wont feel that its cliche or stupid or dumb and you'll cry hard together with the characters too HAHA. How i wish someone could explain to me those chim words that they used you know like poetry style which i don't understand :X then i would be able to understand and appreciate the drama even more.
I just came back from 拜年 (since 9am) and visiting the River Hongbao so I'm really tired and will not write such a complete/detailed/proper post today...But I really hope that this post will successfully persuade more people to watch the drama, and people who have watched the drama would love this post ^^ NOTE: SPOILERS AHEAD
Okay I decided to put this above video (live performance) instead of the fanmade MV because I swear 若曦 and 四爷 are really damn cute! (Refer to 0:48) 四爷 likes to hit 若曦's head and in return 若曦 would hit his head back (in the later episodes) and she also went to pull his 辫子 and etc.
The whole story is so sad because. Ruoxi was in trouble, 八爷 can only help her but it affected 十三. Because 四爷 wanted to help 十三 and 若曦, he needs to become the emperor (when you see how desperate and disappointed he was with himself just because he had no power and could do nothing to save the people he cares when 十三 was punished...it's really damn sad. it's the reason why he wants power so badly) But when he got power and saved the people he cared about, he started to do things which he think would help 若曦 but actually made 若曦 to be in a difficult position, because people beg her to beg him to let them off. She realised that everything was her fault because everything that people did was because of her but their actions caused the brothers to fight with each other.
She decides to leave the Forbidden City because that way, she would no longer be angry over the things that 四爷 does against his brothers. She would then be able to put down hatred and love him fully. But the problem is that 四爷 is the emperor and he has to be in the Forbidden City. (hais)
But having power is so useless because the people that 四爷 cared about all left him soon after all the problems are solved and be became so lonely :( The saddest thing was when 若曦 died. Even though she was with 十四, she never once loved him, and 四爷 didnt even get to see her before she left.
The most important thing is that power caused 四爷 and 八爷 to both lose 若曦。Power is useful only when you need it, but after you've used it and if you didn't use it properly, everyone will leave you, and you'll be left alone right at the top. If either of them did not want power, things would not have ended that way.
I really love this drama a lot, planning to watch it a second time with English subs this time, and maybe read the novel next time. (: But I doubt I have the time to do so once I get into JC. Since i touched on the topic, I really hope that MJ won't drop in COP again. Hais. Really please please please i swear i will study ten thousand times harder once i get into MJ. I'm feeling sad and worried every single day thinking about JAE results. Because I know that even if i can secure a place in MJ, I will not feel happy too. But I just want to get into a JC; so i'll make do with the unhappiness after that. I just want to say, even if I get into MJ, my heart will still be with TJ. I will never be happy even if i can get into MJ. But I just want to get into MJ and I will use this unhappiness to drive results because I never wanted results to force me to go somewhere/do something that I never wanted to.
That's all for today's post; I'm going to do some stuff.. Oh I'm reading 那些年我们一起追的女孩 and probably rewatching the movie once i finish the book (: Then I may do a blog post about it ^^ I wish all of you Happy Chinese New Year again!
Chinese New Year is coming soon and this may just be my last blog post until after CNY I guess. Currently waiting for JAE results, fingers crossed, hoping that i'll get into MJ...Though I don't expect much because I'm aware that their COP drops every single year. I havent thought about what i'd do if i dont get into MJ. We'll see. 走一步看一步吧
Been thinking about many things these days, including the same questions that I've been asking myself all the time: Did really do not enough? Have I really done my best? Isn't this really my best? People will tell you #mybestisgoodenough. But think logically okay. If you have done your best, and another person has done her best too; but your score is totally far too different from the other person, is that really the best that you could do? But the question is, what exactly is the best? Is there even a best? Maybe 6points is the best; but to another person, scoring straight As is the best. Or even scoring straight As and having a good portfolio/CCA records. Is there even a definition for 'the best' ?
Someone once told me; "If you're not as good as others, work twice as hard as others, or maybe thrice as hard." I guess I kindda forgot that. Because i stop having expectations. It's true that expectations lead to disappointments. But if one doesn't dare to experience the pain of disappointments then he will never gain success. Because it is expectations that drive us to work towards our goals, towards success. So when you stop having expectations, that is when you have already given up on yourself. That is when you tell yourself "It doesn't matter. Maybe I can never do as well. Maybe my best isn't enough. Impossible." The moment you tell yourself that it is impossible, you are actually already giving up on yourself. And that is the deadliest mistake ever - to give up on yourself.
There is a definition for "the best". But the definition differs from one person to another. "the best" actually refer to the goal that you set for yourself.
Secondary School. Looking back at it, I wanted to say I have wasted 4 years of my life. But no, I didn't. Neither have you. I spent 4 years of my life learning a lot of things. From mistakes. I've been trying too hard to be someone whom I never was. While trying to be someone that the society would accept, I got lost. I need to start doing things like how I wanted them to happen, and not doing what the society expects me to do. I need to make decisions that I want to make in my life, and not decisions that would not be rejected by the society. I've always told people that they're living their own life, and that they have to live only for themselves, not for others. But I forgot that I need to control my own life not based on what the society expects me to do.
I went up. I went down. I wavered. I lost control. Boom. I crashed. I woke up. Though they say "History always repeats itself." , I just hope that I'll remember how painful the crash was. The reason why I'm always indecisive is because I don't know who am I, and I can't decide whether to make a decision based on what I want, or a decision that the society will accept.
Whenever you get lost, think about primary school days, think about the days when you were young. Because that was the period of time when you were who you really are. And not the person who tries to fit into this society, to become a person that the society will accept.
Roaming around the internet and watched this video after I saw someone tweet about it. Before you watch this video, think about this question: What does Chinese New Year mean to you? Chinese New Year is a festive season where you buy new clothes, dress up yourself, visit relatives, have fun, catch up with those people who you haven't seen for a really long time, collect angbaos (and get $$$), eat good food, enjoy sweet stuff and forget all about dieting. Okay, all of the above aint the real reasons why Chinese celebrate the Lunar New Year. But, it is a season that we all enjoy and have fun, isn't it?
The only reason that i can come up with after watching this video is that this person must have hated Chinese New Year? I mean, even if you have no idea why you celebrate Chinese New Year, but you get holidays, get to eat, get to shop, get to have fun, you wouldn't be criticising Chinese New Year right?
"In my country Singapore, we celebrate Chinese New Year, on February." -> Not only Singaporeans celebrate Chinese New Year. To be exact, CHINESE celebrate Chinese New Year. Whether you're an Indonesian Chinese, Malaysian Chinese, China Chinese, Taiwan Chinese, or wherever Chinese. And, Chinese New Year isn't celebrated in February every year. It follows the Lunar Calendar and can fall in January too, just like this year. If you don't know when's Chinese New Year yet....It's on the 23 January. And that's just the first day of Chinese New Year. Chinese New Year is celebrated over a period of 15days. AND NOT ONE MONTH??!!!!
Okay I seriously can't be bothered typing out the lines from the video.
Chinese New Year isn't a copy of the American New Year. And it isn't the same idea. There are many customs that follow the Chinese New Year, and things that people do during Chinese New Year that you don't do during the New Year. Anyway, you don't even do anything during the New Year, do you? You probably just count down....10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 oh it's a new year. AND SO WHAT? ITS JUST A BRAND NEW DAY FROM YESTERDAY! Chinese New Year is meaningful, it's a festive season that all Chinese celebrate, celebrate togetherness, happiness, and a brand new start.
Please get your facts right before you create a video, kid. Even in the media industry, you have to get facts, evidences, quotations, etc. Or even in the entertainment industry, people create films based on facts and history. They even have to do research before writing the story. You're a Chinese, and you don't even know your own culture. Even if you don't know how to appreciate it, please do not insult the culture. And you don't even know what does “新年快乐万事如意” means? Wow.
He is probably just an ignorant kid who wants to express his opinions on the New Media, just like what many people have done and gotten famous. But the topic is really sensitive and well, let's just blame it on the "freedom of speech". The problem with the freedom of speech that we have is that it creates a platform for people who post without thinking insulting a greater audience more frequently. It's not that we can't express our own opinions, it's just that we really have to think if what we say is going to affect anyone, or insult anyone.
That's all for today, I need to get back to scrapbooking again!
OKAY HI. I finally have the time to blog cos Council Campaigning is finally over and today is the last day of school (Y) Okay I have a lot of things to talk about so i think this post will be damn long (but i have to try to keep it short cos im like damn sleepy now and i still have to crawl out of bed tomorrow to go to school!) But i have so many things to say and i dont know where to start from... T_T
Okay I shall just random and sorry if my post makes no sense LOL
Okay so we had bio lab on food tests...and i dropped the test tube. -_- but heng the test tube didn't break! :P
I had PE on someday and then i met this person and she was like "You look familiar...Did you go for RED Camp?" HAHA. She's in the same class as me for PE. Like super cool cos I only met her once in NP when we were queuing for bus during RED Camp, and both of us only attended the first day. Didn't expect to meet each other again in MJ. And then I found out that she was running for Council too, so some day after school I saw her pasting posters around the school and decided to go around with her haha. (Addon: kewl thing is she's in the same event as me now! :d) The reason why This paragraph is after Bio lab cos PE is after Bio Lab on Tues. LOL
So ya...Council Campaigning finally ended. Phew. Really damn tired actually. Stayed back after school today for results and helped to take down posters around the school.
Anyway that's my poster. :P
The first thing we had to do was a 30s video and i still remembered i put blutack on my phone so that it would stand so that i can film myself LOL. Totally epic. And then i did group rally with a bunch of awesome people (aka Hidaya, Trena, Asyilah, Darren) I think our video was damn cool can; but the rally is like 1.5min per person and there was really not enough time for us to show the whole video. It's like 600+MB so i can't even upload it to the net :/ I spent the whole night doing it and slept at like 2am...I didn't even prepare for my speech and I totally impromptu. But i guess it didn't go that badly.
Things that happened: Road Race, i think all the mascots were damn cool; Chem test, and failing it (argh.); everyone stuck on Draw Something and my friends complaining about my drawings cos they dont understand what the heck im drawing oops; okay what else. I have a lot to say but i suddenly forgot.
And the train delay this morning. Sigh I lazy to complain about it anymore. Just check my twitter.
I actually abandon my post yesterday and went to sleep cos there was this irritating insect flying around and keeps hitting the lightbulb which makes me damn pissed off. So now i'm back again. Council results was kindda scary, was quite sad that a lot of people who are very capable did not get in D: And I'm really damn thankful for those who voted for me la, cos like i didnt expect some people to vote for me, especially those i just knew for like 1month? or maybe only a few days? And really thanks to those who wished me and luck; i'll try very best to do my best (especially when i realise that a lot of capable people did not get in, the more i should do my best and not like become a piece of shit and like become someone who shouldnt be in council but another person is more worthy) And ya i'll also try my best to cope with studies la..
Went to school today for the first council meeting, and all of us have to plan an event; realised that i really don't know a lot of things cos i was not in council before in secondary school...Okay it's time to learn more stuff!
Anyway i can't remember what else i wanted to say in this post, so I shall end here and study history. BYE. AH CARNIVAL TOMORROW!
PLEASE VOTE FOR ME FOR THE MERIDIAN COUNCIL! I'M NOMINEE NUMBER #28!!
Okay so you may not know me, and I may not know you, you must be thinking "Why should I vote for you?"
I believe that the two most basic characteristics that a leader must have are responsibility and equality. The leader's ultimate goal is to lead a group of people to complete a particular task. Hence having responsibility is very important because at the end of the day, one still has to complete a task. Without responsibility, the person may produce a piece of work that is not up to standard or may not even complete the work on time. Even though equality does not exist (which is the truth, because if equality did exist, all of us would be the same.), i believe that we should do our best for every single person and every single thing because ultimately, a leader needs to be a servant leader. I do not only want to unite the school, not only to improvise the school, not only to bring the school together, but i hope to be able to listen to EVERY SINGLE PERSON in this school because no one is to be neglected, because every single person here belongs to the school.
Okay so you may think I'm talking crap or being chim or whatsoever, but I'm a fun-loving person too! I know when to joke, when to have fun and of course, when to be serious.
Next question. What I want to do for the school. Honestly, I don't know what I can do. I know there are some problems, like the toilet near the gym no toilet paper, the buying of notes every single day is very troublesome, the fact that J1s do not have homerooms, etc. I can't promise you I will do this this this because I dont know what I am able to do, and if these plans can really be carried out (since many things have to go through teachers, and etc.) I can only promise I understand what you guys are facing, I can only promise I will do my best, even if I may not be the best of the best.
You have 10 votes. I only need 1 vote from you. If you have a vote to spare, and if you think I can do the job, please vote for me, thank you! I understand that the 30s video and rally may not be enough for you to understand me, but if you still have any questions you can ask me through any platforms, like Facebook or Twitter. Do follow my twitter too! @HAHAHjoo Spread this message to all your friends. Most importantly, I really thank you for sparing time to read this!
It's been a week since i wrote a post here. I'm currently in the school library... With my history file (within which are hundreds of pages of notes and readings that i am supposed to catch up with) and my chem tutorials and assignments to be completed, math tutorials as well..of course there's PW research to be done too. As I turn my head to my left, i actually see many people running and the PE teacher standing there probably taking timings of the run..
JC life. Is tutorials tutorials tutorials and more tutorials; plus readings readings and readings and never ending amount of readings that i can never catch up with. The amount of homework and things to be done just keeps increasing and increasing, even if you're done with one the next day there'll be more to complete. And of course PE. Running like at least 2km per lesson is the norm; whats more there're 2 lessons per week. My legs are aching. Sigh.
Recently just heard of a friend who is going to Poly (even though im not sure if it's true); some people thought that it was kindda unexpected, but i guess is expected that he'll do unexpected things. (as always anyways.) Sometimes I dont know why I'm in JC either; I guess its good to have some buffer time to think about what to do in the future? But it seems like many people who are in JC already have an aim, have a goal as to where they wanna go; medicine, law, etc. I am suddenly so lost and don't even have an aim now.
It really feels like everyone else is going to banking, finance, business, medicine, law, all the fields that you give you big bucks. And it seems like the only route after JC is definitely University. But none of the courses seems interesting enough, they all look so dry and boring and yeah they only serve a purpose to give a job (if there even are job vacancies by the time we go to society to work) and let you earn big bucks. But are people actually happy? They are just working for money, not even something that they love. I dont understand. I really dont.
Why on earth did a choose a path that i never expected to land on, just because everyone tells me that JC is the right way, is the sure way to success, just because everyone is going to a JC. Why am I not brave enough to take a path of my choice (even if i do not know how it will turn out to be) but not what everyone approves of? I really wonder how my life would be different from now if I had gone to poly seriously.
Of course, I'm back to doing something I've always liked in CCA again, even though it's not a high-profile CCA (as usual) but at least i'm doing something i like and not following the crowd. Not fated to photog, oh wells.
Okay back to Chem. Meeting the rest of the people for dinner tonight. Long day to go, but it's something that keeps me going. Till then. Hoping for the best for Council.
Slowly settling down into my new life for the next two years; even though PW/CCA hasn't really started and thus we haven't experienced the full rigor yet..Supposed to be doing my Bio tutorial now but i decided to blog since I haven't been here for a long time and i have so many things to say.
Being in MJ isn't that bad, at least I can cope quite well (As compared to what i heard from people in other schools) but i guess it isn't the exact place i belong to. But no matter what, I really think that i've done my best for O levels, and since this is the result, there's nothing i can do to change about it anyway, so i guess i can only make the fullest out of everything i have here in MJ and not suffer here.
I can't say I hate MJ, neither can i say i love this school. It's just a place where I never expected to enter, a life which i never expected to experience. I swear life is playing a joke on me. I used to be in an environment where i spoke chinese all the way (in lower primary) then i had to get used to speaking in english without a word of chinese (in upper primary). After that i went to AHS where everyone else speaks in many languages (chinese+english+hokkien+malay etc) and now I'm in a place where i have to speak full English again. What is this man.
Recently celebrated Valentines' Day with Kelly and Sheen :) thanks for the gifts people. I miss being a junior. Like as in really being a junior where i have to take orders from the seniors and do as what they instructed.
Anyway, heres the main portion of my sharing today.
Three years ago, back when I was in Secondary two, Sheen actually told us "If you never try you never know". I really didn't know, and so I tried and did my best, and we really got into the Top10 of NE4. Until today, I still think it's quite unbelievable to have gone through the whole process of creating an animation, and knowing so many people through the competition. Recently, a friend just reminded me of this again. Just have a little faith, and the most unexpected things may really happen. You know what, everything in our life is a gamble. Cos you never know what results you'll get. So if you don't gamble, how would you know what results you'll get? Besides, it's not like trying out something would do any harm. Stop being afraid of failing already. How many times have you failed? Not like you have never failed before. It's just another time. Maybe if you hang in there enough you'll pass. Or even excel.
And yes. I'm talking about running for council. Goodnight. Till then.
Hello people! I'm back from orientation and a few days of official lessons and chionging tutorials and CCA showcase! Wow so many things have been happening and so I was really damn busy and had no time at all to blog! Gonna chiong this post damn fast cos I still have to try to figure out my Chem tutorial and read my Bio notes....(okay sian) Anyway the photos in the post don't belong to me (like duh right since i wasnt the photographer haha...Got the urge to snatch the camera from the photographer each time i see people taking photos. I miss doing photog duties seriously!!!) But I will credit people according okay! :)
Firstly, I was damn happy to find out that I was in Atlas (one of the five houses in MJ. the rest includes Callisto, Miranda, Triton, Phobos) cos ATLAS IS AWESOME MA.
This thing is super cool right! Like really damn chio can!! Yellow is so striking and boomz! x) Really many many many many many thanks to the OGLs and Atlas J2s for putting in so much effort!!!
Day1 of orientation was basically ice breakers and then wet games; got super wet like seriously from head to toe all drenched and water is dripping from me as i walked ;_; But it was super fun la; went to ask friends from other classes and heard that they played other games so i suppose different classes/OGs had different routes of games so we didnt get to play some of the games (awww) And of course we got to learn the house cheers too haha x)
Day2 was amazing race (which is known as MMM) and we had to report to Sentosa straight in the morning. Met up with the class before going together as the class at VivoCity. Not a very good day for me because I was having a flu after the wet games on Day1 (things always go wrong on the day of amazing race for me I just don't know why. UGH. but i still survived! 真想拼命十三妹！) but I still had a lot of fun!! Super epic games; and of course bonded with the class. I always can't go high/enthu enough during orientation cos i'm always sick/ having no appetite (irritated much this always happens to me during orientation -_-) and then obviously I don't have energy to shout right. But I still tried my best to cheer la!
Time to introduce my class before I move on to talk about the games. Hi, I'm from 12S306. (Atlas 6) We're a class of Bio students with 17girls and 4guys. We are a rojak class with people taking BCM_ we all take different H1 subjects, ranging from History to Literature and last but not least GSC (General Studies in Chinese) ok quite a cool class cos everyone takes all the endangered combinations HAHA. there's like less than 10 people doing BCMH. Out of 800+ people in the level. Cool right. Actually not very cool when you think about the amount BCMH students have to memorise.LOL (but it's still better than doing physics/econs)
Oh and inside the photo above are our 4 awesome OGLs (from left to right: Yiren, Siti, Farhan, Terrence)
Okay MMM is like damn fun seriously. The first game was super super super epic. Can't imagine we actually have to put marshmallows into our nose and shoot them out (okay disgusting much) I actually suggested taking a photo of the marshmallows that were on the floor and tag everyone on Facebook according to the marshmallows HAHA
There were a couple of those Charades/Pass down the message game. There was one when we had to pass down "Skydiving" And apparently we were near the merlion so i think one of the people in front mistaken the SKY as the MERLION cos he/she probably saw the finger pointing wrongly or something and then started pressing the water cooler LOL which is like totally epic.
The coolest thing was that the teachers actually participated in the amazing race too. HAHA. So at their station we were supposed to sing the school song in a unique way and we rapped it LOL after realising that one of our classmates could beatbox! COOL RIGHT so after that our OGLs started telling other OGLs from other OGs that theres a beatboxer in our class HAHA SUPER FUNNY
We even went to Siloso Beach and played games there (even though it was super hot at that time) And one of the games we played was Tug Of War. Can you imagine it; playing Tug Of War in the beach!! I thought that only happens in stories leh!
After MMM, we had OG dinner together. So shiok! And Farhan told us about ghost stories. And many other stuff as we all took the train back together. Was an awesome bonding session. The best way to bond is really through communicating and talking and sharing.
Day3 was finale. We had a round of mass wet games in the morning; which was something like a war game where the whole J1 level attacked the J2s OGLS; we're supposed to destroy their structures using water bombs haha it actually follows some storyline but im damn lazy to type out the story. After that was preparation for finale.
HAHAHA So everyone is supposed to do a performance..Atlas 5-8 was called Big Bright Blazing Bombastic Buzzing Bumblebees. Cos one of our OGLs were like saying we should add all the B adjectives so that the emcee will have a hard time saying our company name ok epic. HAHA And they even created a cheer for it; and even a "Buzzing Clap"
There was a segment where we did couple dance for our performance and ok guess what the dance steps were choreographed by our two super cute OGLS above ^^^^^ I really don't know how to describe them they're just so AWESOME!!
So basically most of the OGLs lost their voices by the end of MMM but they still continued cheering. And of course orientation ended with a blast in Finale! Performances by all the J1s, OGLs (the different houses), etc. Loved Callisto's one the most; but Atlas was obviously good too!
Had debrief as an OG with our OGLs, they dismissed us and called us back again just to ask us "Out of the three of us, who most handsome" EPIC Y THE OGLS SO CUTE HAHA. But I was really rushing home cos it was damn late and I was really not feeling well man; so yeah fell sick the next day, which was first official day of school (hais.) But nevertheless, really loved orientation and the seniors.
They asked us if we've got anything to say to them; actually im sure everyone does; obviously me too. Being a junior is always the best, but sadly seniors always have to leave. Really love the OGLs and of course all my other seniors a lot. Can never thank them enough because all of them helped me so much and played such a significant role in my life. Sometimes I really wish we can just stop growing up and be forever young where there will always be people taking care of us.
Goodnight for now! Really don't know when I'll be back here again. Tutorials tutorials........
SUP J1s! How was orientation 2012? Bet it must have been fun in all the schools!
Orientation hasn't really started in MJ yet, cos orientation will officially start next Monday with our classmates as our OGMs! We've gotten our classes already, and yes I'm in BCMH (even though it's H1 History and I'm disappointed in the fact that i can take H2 History D;) To be honest, I haven't thought about how to score in my combi, with my poor memory...But I just believe that things will turn out fine since they are the subjects that I like. ^^
Having a sore throat with phlegm now...And still ate chicken rice this morning during break. That's what life is like without Charis nagging at you what not to eat HAHA! She'd be like "Cannot eat chicken, cannot eat egg...Drink honey! Not lemon juice!!" Missing a lot of epic stuff in school last time; our clique with 9 people are all dispersed now. But that should always be how things go, everyone is fighting for their life, is creating their own story.
As much as I still love TJ a lot a lot a lot and really wish I can be there ..I guess MJ is a good place for me to be myself all over again, after the four years in AHS and learning to keep a low profile (-_-) 说好听一点 it's keeping a low profile. 说难听一点 it's being anti-social, not taking initiative. I don't know why I've been trying so hard to be somebody I never was, why I've been doing many things that the society accepts and not what I want. Maybe MJ is where I should belong to with everyone so enthu!
Okay don't think i'll be blogging much anymore cos I'm going to mug hard and play hard! I wish everybody have an awesome college life! :D
Just got back to Singapore; experienced about 2.5 days of life without internet and i kinda like it actually. I dont really know how to explain/describe the feeling though. Oh yeah anyway this blog post is just a random one so i'll be writing some random stuff in different paragraphs that have no link with each other.
I was watching the NEmation!6 clips just now and I really liked these 4 clips so i thought i should just share them with you guys. :) Okay if you are too lazy to read this post, just visit http://nemation.sg and vote for them now! Your vote is crucial for them because voting takes up a portion of their results and you should cast your vote to the team you think should win because every single one of them has put in a lot of effort to produce their 1 minute clip in 3 weeks of hard work. They deserve every single support that you can provide. Besides, you can also stand to win attractive prizes. So just cast your votes!! It doesn't take up a lot of time anyway and it'll be beneficial for you, as well as for the participants!
This is C2, done by Commonwealth Secondary School. I just love the comparison of past and present here. It shows both the similarities and differences very clearly through telling a story!
This is C6, done by Kent Ridge Secondary. I love this because it is really creative, it tells the story from different points of view, from different perspectives. Also, it does not have any vocals and expresses everything through the drawings; so i really thought it's unique and stands out from the rest of the clips.
This is C9, done by School and Science and Technology. The animation may not be as cute as the others, but i liked it because it's quite meaningful and heartwarming ; and i really felt that this video is the best representation of the theme "NS: From Fathers to Sons"
This is C10, done by St Margaret's Secondary School. I liked this animation because they could actually put the three main things together into a story: things used in NS, life in NS, past vs present. And of course how parents care about their children!
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I don't really like watching period dramas, 古装戏 but I watched Scarlet Heart 步步惊心 just because everyone told me it's good. And I just can't get off it. Okay I really love it a lot. I'm watching it everyday on Channel 8 too. And I caught a line from today's episode: 以他的性格，恐怕除了他自己，谁都不会喜欢
就算放得下，也忘不了。每一天都会想念。
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Anyway, JAE results are coming out 2 days later! I pray hard everyday that I'll get into MJ. Okay seriously. I may not work as hard as a lot of people for o levels (who have gotten results that could get them into VJ RJ HCI) but i swear i have worked really hard and never given up even when i really couldn't understand a single shit. (esp in physics and amath) I can't even get into the school of my choice with the results i've gotten, and i just want to get into a jc and work like ten thousand times harder. Thats all that I'm wishing for; is that really too much? But i know that there is every possibility that the COP for MJ will drop again. (and then i'll be posted to NYJ where i know no single person there) or maybe both schools COP will drop and then i will be posted to a NP.
If I were born in a rich family, I would have gone to NP. Because I wouldn't fear failing. I can't possibly take a course which i think i like but i realise later on that i dont really like and i couldn't even excel in it, right? I suddenly don't know what i want to do in the future. What i think is fun (aka what i like) seems so unrealistic. I just don't understand why everyone wants to do Business. Should i just study something more realistic.. Hais. Well, if i get accepted into NP, then i'll be doing something unrealistic (but i'll try my best to produce results, hopefully)
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It's easy to find out how important a person is to you; if you feel sad when he/she leaves your life, it means that he/she is important to you. Sadly, the two important people (other than my parents of course) already left my life. I still keep in contact with one of them; but not with the other already. And the thing is, these two people were in life for a shorter period of time as compared to many people whom i think are not as important as them. You know what, it's really difficult to find friends who totally understands you. It's even harder to find a person who never fail to make you laugh every time.
Happy Chinese New Year! 新年快乐！龙年行大运！
Recently finished a drama Scarlet Heart 步步惊心. Those who haven't watched it, please go watch! It's damn awesome. It's like you'll never hate any of the characters even if they did something that caused harm to others because the 出发点 of their actions are always because of love and friendship. It's such a sad story so the characters cry in every episode but you definitely wont feel that its cliche or stupid or dumb and you'll cry hard together with the characters too HAHA. How i wish someone could explain to me those chim words that they used you know like poetry style which i don't understand :X then i would be able to understand and appreciate the drama even more.
I just came back from 拜年 (since 9am) and visiting the River Hongbao so I'm really tired and will not write such a complete/detailed/proper post today...But I really hope that this post will successfully persuade more people to watch the drama, and people who have watched the drama would love this post ^^ NOTE: SPOILERS AHEAD
Okay I decided to put this above video (live performance) instead of the fanmade MV because I swear 若曦 and 四爷 are really damn cute! (Refer to 0:48) 四爷 likes to hit 若曦's head and in return 若曦 would hit his head back (in the later episodes) and she also went to pull his 辫子 and etc.
The whole story is so sad because. Ruoxi was in trouble, 八爷 can only help her but it affected 十三. Because 四爷 wanted to help 十三 and 若曦, he needs to become the emperor (when you see how desperate and disappointed he was with himself just because he had no power and could do nothing to save the people he cares when 十三 was punished...it's really damn sad. it's the reason why he wants power so badly) But when he got power and saved the people he cared about, he started to do things which he think would help 若曦 but actually made 若曦 to be in a difficult position, because people beg her to beg him to let them off. She realised that everything was her fault because everything that people did was because of her but their actions caused the brothers to fight with each other.
She decides to leave the Forbidden City because that way, she would no longer be angry over the things that 四爷 does against his brothers. She would then be able to put down hatred and love him fully. But the problem is that 四爷 is the emperor and he has to be in the Forbidden City. (hais)
But having power is so useless because the people that 四爷 cared about all left him soon after all the problems are solved and be became so lonely :( The saddest thing was when 若曦 died. Even though she was with 十四, she never once loved him, and 四爷 didnt even get to see her before she left.
The most important thing is that power caused 四爷 and 八爷 to both lose 若曦。Power is useful only when you need it, but after you've used it and if you didn't use it properly, everyone will leave you, and you'll be left alone right at the top. If either of them did not want power, things would not have ended that way.
I really love this drama a lot, planning to watch it a second time with English subs this time, and maybe read the novel next time. (: But I doubt I have the time to do so once I get into JC. Since i touched on the topic, I really hope that MJ won't drop in COP again. Hais. Really please please please i swear i will study ten thousand times harder once i get into MJ. I'm feeling sad and worried every single day thinking about JAE results. Because I know that even if i can secure a place in MJ, I will not feel happy too. But I just want to get into a JC; so i'll make do with the unhappiness after that. I just want to say, even if I get into MJ, my heart will still be with TJ. I will never be happy even if i can get into MJ. But I just want to get into MJ and I will use this unhappiness to drive results because I never wanted results to force me to go somewhere/do something that I never wanted to.
That's all for today's post; I'm going to do some stuff.. Oh I'm reading 那些年我们一起追的女孩 and probably rewatching the movie once i finish the book (: Then I may do a blog post about it ^^ I wish all of you Happy Chinese New Year again!
Chinese New Year is coming soon and this may just be my last blog post until after CNY I guess. Currently waiting for JAE results, fingers crossed, hoping that i'll get into MJ...Though I don't expect much because I'm aware that their COP drops every single year. I havent thought about what i'd do if i dont get into MJ. We'll see. 走一步看一步吧
Been thinking about many things these days, including the same questions that I've been asking myself all the time: Did really do not enough? Have I really done my best? Isn't this really my best? People will tell you #mybestisgoodenough. But think logically okay. If you have done your best, and another person has done her best too; but your score is totally far too different from the other person, is that really the best that you could do? But the question is, what exactly is the best? Is there even a best? Maybe 6points is the best; but to another person, scoring straight As is the best. Or even scoring straight As and having a good portfolio/CCA records. Is there even a definition for 'the best' ?
Someone once told me; "If you're not as good as others, work twice as hard as others, or maybe thrice as hard." I guess I kindda forgot that. Because i stop having expectations. It's true that expectations lead to disappointments. But if one doesn't dare to experience the pain of disappointments then he will never gain success. Because it is expectations that drive us to work towards our goals, towards success. So when you stop having expectations, that is when you have already given up on yourself. That is when you tell yourself "It doesn't matter. Maybe I can never do as well. Maybe my best isn't enough. Impossible." The moment you tell yourself that it is impossible, you are actually already giving up on yourself. And that is the deadliest mistake ever - to give up on yourself.
There is a definition for "the best". But the definition differs from one person to another. "the best" actually refer to the goal that you set for yourself.
Secondary School. Looking back at it, I wanted to say I have wasted 4 years of my life. But no, I didn't. Neither have you. I spent 4 years of my life learning a lot of things. From mistakes. I've been trying too hard to be someone whom I never was. While trying to be someone that the society would accept, I got lost. I need to start doing things like how I wanted them to happen, and not doing what the society expects me to do. I need to make decisions that I want to make in my life, and not decisions that would not be rejected by the society. I've always told people that they're living their own life, and that they have to live only for themselves, not for others. But I forgot that I need to control my own life not based on what the society expects me to do.
I went up. I went down. I wavered. I lost control. Boom. I crashed. I woke up. Though they say "History always repeats itself." , I just hope that I'll remember how painful the crash was. The reason why I'm always indecisive is because I don't know who am I, and I can't decide whether to make a decision based on what I want, or a decision that the society will accept.
Whenever you get lost, think about primary school days, think about the days when you were young. Because that was the period of time when you were who you really are. And not the person who tries to fit into this society, to become a person that the society will accept.
Roaming around the internet and watched this video after I saw someone tweet about it. Before you watch this video, think about this question: What does Chinese New Year mean to you? Chinese New Year is a festive season where you buy new clothes, dress up yourself, visit relatives, have fun, catch up with those people who you haven't seen for a really long time, collect angbaos (and get $$$), eat good food, enjoy sweet stuff and forget all about dieting. Okay, all of the above aint the real reasons why Chinese celebrate the Lunar New Year. But, it is a season that we all enjoy and have fun, isn't it?
The only reason that i can come up with after watching this video is that this person must have hated Chinese New Year? I mean, even if you have no idea why you celebrate Chinese New Year, but you get holidays, get to eat, get to shop, get to have fun, you wouldn't be criticising Chinese New Year right?
"In my country Singapore, we celebrate Chinese New Year, on February." -> Not only Singaporeans celebrate Chinese New Year. To be exact, CHINESE celebrate Chinese New Year. Whether you're an Indonesian Chinese, Malaysian Chinese, China Chinese, Taiwan Chinese, or wherever Chinese. And, Chinese New Year isn't celebrated in February every year. It follows the Lunar Calendar and can fall in January too, just like this year. If you don't know when's Chinese New Year yet....It's on the 23 January. And that's just the first day of Chinese New Year. Chinese New Year is celebrated over a period of 15days. AND NOT ONE MONTH??!!!!
Okay I seriously can't be bothered typing out the lines from the video.
Chinese New Year isn't a copy of the American New Year. And it isn't the same idea. There are many customs that follow the Chinese New Year, and things that people do during Chinese New Year that you don't do during the New Year. Anyway, you don't even do anything during the New Year, do you? You probably just count down....10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 oh it's a new year. AND SO WHAT? ITS JUST A BRAND NEW DAY FROM YESTERDAY! Chinese New Year is meaningful, it's a festive season that all Chinese celebrate, celebrate togetherness, happiness, and a brand new start.
Please get your facts right before you create a video, kid. Even in the media industry, you have to get facts, evidences, quotations, etc. Or even in the entertainment industry, people create films based on facts and history. They even have to do research before writing the story. You're a Chinese, and you don't even know your own culture. Even if you don't know how to appreciate it, please do not insult the culture. And you don't even know what does “新年快乐万事如意” means? Wow.
He is probably just an ignorant kid who wants to express his opinions on the New Media, just like what many people have done and gotten famous. But the topic is really sensitive and well, let's just blame it on the "freedom of speech". The problem with the freedom of speech that we have is that it creates a platform for people who post without thinking insulting a greater audience more frequently. It's not that we can't express our own opinions, it's just that we really have to think if what we say is going to affect anyone, or insult anyone.
That's all for today, I need to get back to scrapbooking again!
